this is how i want it.
just so happy. :)Saturday, September 06, 2008
i'm starting to hate my job. i was pretty eager in the beginning to work in events, thought of all things glamourous. now i know, people in the industry should, working in events is just crapwork. and i fucking hate those fuckedup clients who think they own me just because we're carrying out a project for you. hello, you think you're the only client and i have to devote every single second of my time to your project?
i hate to listen and say 'okok' and then smile, whilst all i want is to give the person a good punch. i'm usually the kind to express what i dislike, working in this line has made me swallow my pride, and that sucks. having to say yes to the clients even when i don't agree, that is total torture. i just want to give all those fuckedup clients a good beating, from head to toe. if they like to take over my job so much, by all means.
i feel bad for my manager, she is very nice but she has to leave me to the event myself 'cos of her other work commitments. i don't blame her but i think i'm probably not cut out for this job in this company...they just throw you on the job like that...you have to be a really fast learner or else it's a slow death for you. every event i feel like i'm going to war, having to battle the clients who are enemies. it's really getting tiresome, especially having to face those high-and-mighty fuckheads. i just feel sick of everything. it's SO much work, i've been here for 2 months, but i feel like i've been working for 2 years. also, i just got confirmed a few weeks back, now i'm really regretting confirming, 'cos i'd have to give 1 month's notice for resignation...i'm really thinking it through. i don't want to be spoilt and fussy, on one hand, i'm really getting burnt out, on the other, i guess you'd still be laden with other kinds of problems in another job...i don't want to be labelled weak, spoilt, quitting 2 months after my job, but there are so many concerns to consider as well...
i'm tired.
*thank YOU. for always always being my bestest friend. if i smile, it's for you. if i weep, it's because i have you, someone i can always rely on to dry my tears.
i hate to listen and say 'okok' and then smile, whilst all i want is to give the person a good punch. i'm usually the kind to express what i dislike, working in this line has made me swallow my pride, and that sucks. having to say yes to the clients even when i don't agree, that is total torture. i just want to give all those fuckedup clients a good beating, from head to toe. if they like to take over my job so much, by all means.
i feel bad for my manager, she is very nice but she has to leave me to the event myself 'cos of her other work commitments. i don't blame her but i think i'm probably not cut out for this job in this company...they just throw you on the job like that...you have to be a really fast learner or else it's a slow death for you. every event i feel like i'm going to war, having to battle the clients who are enemies. it's really getting tiresome, especially having to face those high-and-mighty fuckheads. i just feel sick of everything. it's SO much work, i've been here for 2 months, but i feel like i've been working for 2 years. also, i just got confirmed a few weeks back, now i'm really regretting confirming, 'cos i'd have to give 1 month's notice for resignation...i'm really thinking it through. i don't want to be spoilt and fussy, on one hand, i'm really getting burnt out, on the other, i guess you'd still be laden with other kinds of problems in another job...i don't want to be labelled weak, spoilt, quitting 2 months after my job, but there are so many concerns to consider as well...
i'm tired.
*thank YOU. for always always being my bestest friend. if i smile, it's for you. if i weep, it's because i have you, someone i can always rely on to dry my tears.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
COMPLAIN.
to cut a long story short, due to some miscommunication between the big shots (maybe just ONE big shot), i might have to do some damage control. i'd arranged for a meeting with one of my sponsors but due to some miscomm, i didn't go down and my client had NO IDEA.
she was expecting me and i innocently thought she was aware the meeting was cancelled. all because of ONE big shot in the company. my co-workers and i are doing concurrent but separate projects with this client, a super big-time player in the night entertainment, when my colleague went down for her own project, the client asked for me without knowing i wasn't coming down. which is fantastic. she must have a pretty bad impression of my project now...which also means i have extra work to do tomorrow!
some people have NO professional ethics. how can someone just say "oh shit, i forgot to tell xxx" 30 minutes before the meeting? THIS IS WORK; NOT YOUR DINNER DATE. i think my effort has so simply gone down the drain. and she didn't even seem remorseful. sometimes i really feel bad for my own manager, because SHE is some big shot, we really can't say anything.
TSK.
p.s. i need to get an agnesb namecard holder! :)
to cut a long story short, due to some miscommunication between the big shots (maybe just ONE big shot), i might have to do some damage control. i'd arranged for a meeting with one of my sponsors but due to some miscomm, i didn't go down and my client had NO IDEA.
she was expecting me and i innocently thought she was aware the meeting was cancelled. all because of ONE big shot in the company. my co-workers and i are doing concurrent but separate projects with this client, a super big-time player in the night entertainment, when my colleague went down for her own project, the client asked for me without knowing i wasn't coming down. which is fantastic. she must have a pretty bad impression of my project now...which also means i have extra work to do tomorrow!
some people have NO professional ethics. how can someone just say "oh shit, i forgot to tell xxx" 30 minutes before the meeting? THIS IS WORK; NOT YOUR DINNER DATE. i think my effort has so simply gone down the drain. and she didn't even seem remorseful. sometimes i really feel bad for my own manager, because SHE is some big shot, we really can't say anything.
TSK.
p.s. i need to get an agnesb namecard holder! :)
Monday, August 04, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
amidst the hustle and bustle of a slave-driven working life, i am grateful for my ever-supportive boyfriend! he has been fetching me from work and bringing me for dinner almost every night, something that i cannot be too thankful about...the only thing i look forward to every night! i really miss my girlfriends though, working in events = ZERO social life (other than your co-workers). i miss you all alot, hope you all are better off! :(
i've been offered another job, slightly more than my current pay, with definitely shorter hours. i thought about it over the weekend and rejected it. before this job offer, i told myself i'd definitely quit once i get another offer, but i didn't after all. the job sounded boring, compared to my current job, plus i'm pretty used to the working culture in my present place...i guess i'm not that adverse towards it after all. the job scope is fun but very fast, and pretty challenging, people at work are generally nice, and i have a very patient direct supervisor, which i am grateful about. however, like i always say things are always..."so far so good, we can never be too sure".
let's see how long i can last!
i've been offered another job, slightly more than my current pay, with definitely shorter hours. i thought about it over the weekend and rejected it. before this job offer, i told myself i'd definitely quit once i get another offer, but i didn't after all. the job sounded boring, compared to my current job, plus i'm pretty used to the working culture in my present place...i guess i'm not that adverse towards it after all. the job scope is fun but very fast, and pretty challenging, people at work are generally nice, and i have a very patient direct supervisor, which i am grateful about. however, like i always say things are always..."so far so good, we can never be too sure".
let's see how long i can last!
Friday, July 25, 2008
one word: deadbeat.
working kills me.
i think i'm going to die from overwork.
i wake up never to meet the light, i knock off never to see the light.
i am overworked, underpaid. neverending work. people at work are slavedrivers, and i feel the need to push my limits too. but i don't want to be burnt out so quickly.
the things i learn are numerous, what i've learnt in a week feels like i've been working for months. the pace is so fast, i'm afraid i can't catch up. so many things, so little time, this time i'm really testing my limits.
today i woke up at 5.30, had to reach work at 645, i ended work at 630. 12 hours of work. and the rest of the days? i start at 9 and i don't end before 9. 12 hours everyday, even weekends, where the hell do i find a work-life balance?
it's so ironic, we're organising a family day for a client, and we?! how do we organise a family day event without actual experience?!
TELL ME; WHY AM I WORKING SO HARD?!
extremely tired.
what do i gain from this, i constantly ask myself, it has been 2 weeks, sometimes when i think i've found the answer, something comes along and deludes me.
I AM DAMN TIRED.
i ought to find some time to rethink this. i'm so fucking tired everyday, i sit on the train home just stoning. literally a zombie.
p.s. on another note...the dark knight
heath ledger's joker performance was impeccable. totally outshone christian bale, whom i thought wasn't given much space to develop his potential. i was totally in awe of ledger's joker role, like overwhelmed to the point where i thought the joker was simply disturbing...it's a must-see for heath ledger alone - a worthy performance. other than that, i thought it was far too draggy and boring in the beginning. i must emphasize that ledger's performance is NOT overrated, you gotta see it to believe it! psychotic yet breathtaking!
heath ledger aside, the joker reveals the subconscious dark side of everyone...you & me, how loneliness seeks company, how morally complex you & me are...the character is brilliantly crafted. there is this desperation the joker brings out that you & me have all experienced before...i can't describe it properly, but it seems easy to relate to, somehow.
working kills me.
i think i'm going to die from overwork.
i wake up never to meet the light, i knock off never to see the light.
i am overworked, underpaid. neverending work. people at work are slavedrivers, and i feel the need to push my limits too. but i don't want to be burnt out so quickly.
the things i learn are numerous, what i've learnt in a week feels like i've been working for months. the pace is so fast, i'm afraid i can't catch up. so many things, so little time, this time i'm really testing my limits.
today i woke up at 5.30, had to reach work at 645, i ended work at 630. 12 hours of work. and the rest of the days? i start at 9 and i don't end before 9. 12 hours everyday, even weekends, where the hell do i find a work-life balance?
it's so ironic, we're organising a family day for a client, and we?! how do we organise a family day event without actual experience?!
TELL ME; WHY AM I WORKING SO HARD?!
extremely tired.
what do i gain from this, i constantly ask myself, it has been 2 weeks, sometimes when i think i've found the answer, something comes along and deludes me.
I AM DAMN TIRED.
i ought to find some time to rethink this. i'm so fucking tired everyday, i sit on the train home just stoning. literally a zombie.
p.s. on another note...the dark knight
heath ledger's joker performance was impeccable. totally outshone christian bale, whom i thought wasn't given much space to develop his potential. i was totally in awe of ledger's joker role, like overwhelmed to the point where i thought the joker was simply disturbing...it's a must-see for heath ledger alone - a worthy performance. other than that, i thought it was far too draggy and boring in the beginning. i must emphasize that ledger's performance is NOT overrated, you gotta see it to believe it! psychotic yet breathtaking!
heath ledger aside, the joker reveals the subconscious dark side of everyone...you & me, how loneliness seeks company, how morally complex you & me are...the character is brilliantly crafted. there is this desperation the joker brings out that you & me have all experienced before...i can't describe it properly, but it seems easy to relate to, somehow.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
i need a rainbow that never ends
so don't take away your safe, warm hands
i need a rainbow that won't disappear
so don't be absent for my tomorrows
only you know why my tears fall
only you know how to dry the loneliness from my walls
i need a rainbow that doesn't fade,
without all the stormy weather and rainy days
so take my hand and bring me away
so don't take away your safe, warm hands
i need a rainbow that won't disappear
so don't be absent for my tomorrows
only you know why my tears fall
only you know how to dry the loneliness from my walls
i need a rainbow that doesn't fade,
without all the stormy weather and rainy days
so take my hand and bring me away
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