met up with the orchard girls for lunch, which was very worthwhile. although a short hour, it was reviving. by the way, minnies, your loud voice is comforting indeed, feels good to know you're nearby :) "min - heard first then seen." haha. and angel, the omnipresent one whose presence never fails to comfort too.

and we should do the bedroom thing again SOON with the other girls and finish the remainder!

tonight's gonna be a good, good night

everyday should be a good, good day
everyday is a good, good day!

goodness, overwhelm me.

i miss school. miss going to coffee joints early in the morning and hogging the seats till night to study. i even miss going to nus central library to do my neverending readings. can you believe it, for a person who hates exams, i miss studying. i miss writing my notes in all different shades of colours. i miss going to stationery stores to stock up on my collection. i miss using up every drop of ink in the highlighter and throwing the empty pens into the bins, pen after pen. i miss having the occasional afternoon beer at breko/hv while studying. i miss studying alone. i miss writing term papers. i miss doing research.

i'm so nostalgic i suck. i should look FORWARD, damnit.

have been hearing about wedding proposals of late. cliched as it may be, how's a giant billboard proposal down the ecp highway right in singapore?

i want to hold you when you've had a bad day. and please let me, i want to return the favour.

let's be each other's lighthouses in the stormy skies.

actually, at the end of the day, it doesn't matter how much time we have together or how we're spending time together. it just kinda very simply makes me happy just getting to see you. beneath the shields of armour, the simple girl in me can't help but smile when we meet. it beats everything else, even if just for a while, you make me feel better in this mad world.

and that is how simple love can be.

what i really want is to be jobless in october, and go for a holiday for my birthday.

i'm really bad at dealing with problems, all i want to do is escape from them. reality bites, i can so feel myself dwelling into negativity again. it's like quicksand, but i'm struggling to stay afloat.

it's time i took a break. always saying, never realising.

everything's gonna be alright. everything's gonna be alright. keep calm and carry on. hopefully i'd find strength, somehow.

sleepless & troubled

have been troubled over some matters over work and my employment issues. went for a few interviews and am pending reply from a particular company that i would like to work for. at the current place, i am about to embark (again!) on another project, this time all by myself. as the boss says, like an assessment for me as she'd like to offer me a permanent position (but mind you, it's a totally different job scope from what i've been doing, so what the fuck, i say she's just trying to take advantage of me damnit).

so i'm like eagerly awaiting for the the said company to offer me a job hopefully so i can RESIGN from the civil sector. i guess the job scope in the civil sector is pretty okay, but unfortunately i've been in the division which practices micro management and the management styles does not fit me at all, hence my desire to leave asap. SIGH. and this next project i'd be directly under the scary director, can't imagine my life. and it's in about a month's time...how to tender and serve notice...?!

i've this escapist attitude in my worklife, in my previous company too...each time i'm about to start on a new big project i feel threatened. i feel like i haven't made any big mistakes for the 1st project and i'm sure i'll screw up the next kind of mindset, then i choose to escape by resigning...don't know how i'll survive in the corporate world! feel like i've only the stamina and drive to wholly put my heart on only one major project at a time...

the corporate world is no fun. wish me luck.

the ironic motto in life: working to save up to quit working!