psychomotor disability

i drove myself home the past 2 nights. i only can thank ken for being so painfully patient with me. i've got problems going into the correct lanes and i realise the prior bbdc driving lessons were merely really just lessons. we keep driving along the same roads for practice and it's only now when i realise the road conditions are SO MUCH more different and unpredictable.

not to mention, i can't even park - there are no poles, i don't know what to see (i really suffer from psychomotor difficulties)! ken gave me this incredulous look - the look that said "see la, you learn in your si ban (rigid, inflexible) way, now outside you dunno how to park". HAHA.

i guess ken will insist on me taking the wheel more often now, i really need the practice. :)

heart of greed

this hongkong drama serial is really GOOD. i just started watching, only at episode 12 of 40, and it's already very engaging. the acting is so intense, my emotions were just overwhelming. i'm no newbie to crying while watching dramas, but this is definitely not some romantic sob story. it's a serial about family matters, ultimately ending up with members trying to gain a share of the 6 billion family inheritance. as far as i've watched, i'd say this series is a must-watch. and, watch it in cantonese, its original version, mandarin dubbing just doesn't do hong kong serials justice.

a bond strangling the surviving heart

one day when the day was warm
i thought of you,
amidst the summer's storm
how do i forgive you
for leaving all too soon
how can i forget you
a sibling all too short
not crying because you're gone
only saddened there's no one to share
what could have been yours and mine
a stinging longing that never greys
watch me limp away,
into a memory that stays

nausea.

i am so damned pissed even the king of hades would be scared. i am as hungry as i am pissed. i am so damned angry i need to vent. on what, i don't know, and i don't have - anything or anyone to vent on. GOSH, I AM JUST SO DAMNED FRIGGIN' PISSED. AND SAD. GDI GDI GDI! and i feel like throwing up. i am so bloody hungry i can't even throw anything up! my stomach's churning inside out it's so fucking uncomfortable yet i can't do anything about it. i am, again, so damned PISSED OFF.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh argh!

i've gotten addicted to stand-up comedies lately, watching them on video. they provide a good source of entertainment anytime, anywhere. here are my recommendations (not in order of any preference):

1. russell peters (this "brown guy" is fantastic for his take on racism, for jokes at himself and fellow others, he makes you laugh just by standing on stage. seriously.)

2. chris rock (he's genuinely funny - for his "advice" on men and women, marriage and singlehood, you'd most likely relate to his anecdotes very easily)

3. george carlin (he is THE MAN for dark, political and religious satirical humour - to use 'humour' would be kind of patronising, he makes incredible points of issue regarding the sensitive topics, which i find so amazingly true. note: not for the conservatives, religiously-sensitive - his 'humour' can be too much to take!)

there is so many more comedians worthy of notice, these are just my personal favourites.

sex and the city

aside from sarah jessica parker's sagging skin, i thought the movie was decent enough! it was such a girls' movie, perfect for a girls' movie night out! it's entertaining, some kind of fairytale-ish, happy ending type of fun movie, it's obvious who the target audience of the movie is. doesn't really matter whether you've been a follower of the series, as long as you're female, it's sort of gets to you in a way or another. plus, it relates a girl's worst nightmare : being abandoned at the wedding altar (gasp! sidetrack: so don't even try getting married in the first place). basically, the movie is just alot of female indulgence - in fashion, brands, love and everything girly!

Rules:
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


#1 If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
i'd rant and rave and be really legitimately childish and get back at him, or THEM.

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
i don't know. can dreams really come true? else why would they be called 'dreams'?

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
i think i would say what would be my 'ideal' wedding be like...held ON A PLANE! on the way to my honeymoon destination, all the guests on the plane with me, which is probably only a handful, just the usual immediate family and friends. if i could have it my way, i'd prefer a western fashion just a simple ceremony on the plane, minus the old fashioned wedding dinner, just alot of BOOZE AND DANCING AND PARTYING after the wedding (minus the parents, that is)

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
yes, extremely, i don't see my mind clearing up anytime soon...

#5 What’s your ideal lover like?
someone who is also my best friend, a pillar of strength for me (i'm actually very emotionally and physically weak i think), who loves me as who i am, ideally would have no eyes for no other legs than my thunder thighs, have no room for other homosapiens except me (maybe his parents, yes i assume my ideal lover to be MALE), and ideally my lover should be LOADED (with money, that is), someone who can be lots of fun together with me, able to catch up with me and catch me, someone able to have fast fun yet love slowly...


#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
i like to have the best of both worlds, so my ideal lover should constitute of both personas!


#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
WHY do i have to wait for someone i really love? I think i can only tell if i really love that someone after we've been together.

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I don't know...too bad i guess? Maybe we can be friends and if he happens to be unattached sometime later while I'm also still unattached then there can be a possibility...


#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
everything. and nothing.

#11 Is being tagged fun?
i think so. at least someone thought of you sometime. being thought of feels nice.

#12 How do you see yourself in 10 years' time?
i do not live for the future, who knows, i might be dead tomorrow?

#13 Who is currently the most important person to you?
who are, i would say. my mum and my SO.

#14 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
fun and possibly similar to me in ways of thought...(wani, that's you)

#15 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
SINGLE AND RICH. DUH. wth, why is this even a question?

#16 What’s the first thing you do every morning?
think why i am still alive.

#17 Would you give all in a relationship?
yes. if the person is worth it.

#18 What is the sweetest thing someone has done for you?
being there for me.

#19 What type of friends do you like?
friends who never judge and who can keep secrets!

#20 If you played a prank on someone, & he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
laugh?

i'm tagging shimin, carine, stanley, angel, hwan, and anyone who reads this!

her hands may not produce Beethoven’s symphony,
but what she does for me,
is worth more than all that money.
her voice may be no music at times,
but what she says will help, you’d find.
more than gold and better than silver,
she’s no queen but she is my mother.

happy mothers' day to all! :)