prayers for the new year, 2004...

- for world peace
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- happiness
- for everyone to be happy and happier and happiest.
- and of course, i pray the a levels will be easy for me, smooth-sailing school life. hee.

p.s. tell your loved ones you love them. just for once. =)

all the glimmer and glitters for all! this is the last day of 2003, so enjoy it. not. i love my friends and more friends, sennette, rueyhwan, marilyn, xueting, angeline, jiayu, aikwee, sharon, alex, david, jackson, weixin, samuel, rachel, diyana, carine, maybelline, huishan, all of you! everybody, I LOVE YOU! and of course, i love mummy, daddy and korkor and all my family.
and i love my boyfriend.

i'm sick of myself for being such a trend-follower, with no decent mind of my own. oh, lynnette, you make me sick. yuck.

geography just kills me. i'm so dead. i haven't finished my homework!!! HELP.

i type a few sentences and i think of you. all i do, i think of you. mummy misses you badly, daddy thinks of you alot, we all wish you were still here. i no longer dream of you, send me a dream tonight will you? a nice one? so shattered without you. where's my angel? dry my tears and hold my hand.

i haven't got true friends, i haven't got a family, i'm indecent, i'm so bitchy i find myself downright slutty, i put people off with my fuck attitude, i backstab people so well i'm angry at myself, i act so well i can't differentiate reel from real, i scream so much my eyes are deaf and my ears are blind, i hate myself for being me. all my friends are shunning me 'cos they find me weird, all the people i know ostracise me 'cos they think i'm mad. i have such a perfect life i wonder what my parents fed me whilst growing up. i do a pretty good job destroying myself. come on, shoot me. perhaps i'll come alive. kill me now.

i'm whiney because my life is FUCK. period.

i so much want to spend the new year with you. it seems you have so much on hand. i'm glad to see you busy, i'm glad to see you working, i'm glad i'm optimistic.

for a word i speak, i put on a mask. for a sentence i make, i put on colours. for each thing i do, i put on a show. there goes the face of a doll, the heart of a doll. enjoy the show.