happy shiny people

• went for short trip to KL with the bf weekend before last.


• took the train to kranji, hopped on train to larkin. had breakfast at larkin. hopped on coach to KL


• met up with mom and relatives


• went clubbing with cousin and bf


• slept at aunt's house that night


• next morning, took aunty's car to drive to KL from aunty's place in the suburbs


• re-emphasized fact that the bf is a living GPS, and a remarkable driver


• had a mini teeny weeny road trip, drove from suburbs to KL and around and back


• walked alot, had really black m'sian-style hokkien mee, had A&W, had Dunkin' Donuts, basically ATE alot


• walked almost all the malls around KLCC, just the 2 of us


• loved holidaying with bf, nothing to worry, nothing to fret, just walk & follow, eat & drink, carefree and easy


• tried to queue for tickets to Petronas Towers but tickets ran out


• got scolded by bf for still being uptight and hurried during vacation


• hogged the car until wee hours, felt a little ashamed that people at home had to stay up to open the gate for us


• threw a tantrum of some sorts the next day because it was raining, wet and dirty


• bf had to pacify me


• went back by coach on sunday night


• missed life. want to live life. will live life.
  

NEWSFLASH!

i have tendered my resignation! YESSSSSSSS! had a long talk with my asst director, then a brief talk with my MD. after a few days i tendered, the subject was avoided, i didnt want to be too insistent as well...then yesterday my MD finally agreed. he told my colleague 'no choice, if she really wants to leave...' i told him to 'keep the doors open for me' and he was pretty surprised...

i feel very liberated. albeit a little sad, since the people here are pretty nice to me. suddenly felt a rush of emotions when one of my colleagues hugged me today...going to miss the times when we hang out. still have to serve notice till the end of march, though.

right now, career-wise things are still pending, but there goes. i'm going to be a risk-taker, maybe not so wise in these bleak economic times...but i'm not going to have any regrets! i'm young now and young only once!

again: so liberated! :)

2009's goal:

to reach my first $10k by this oct. i am determined to achieve my first goal within the first year of my working life.

in the meantime, i will continue my job hunt...be it actively or not...

a big thank you to aikwee who helped me with the bak-kwa buying! very very grateful!

a happy chinese new year to all in advance! :)

anyone who wants to go for a drink, please call me, i'm so craving for DRINKS!

cny help

anyone going down to lim chee guan to queue for bak kwa? can i "ride" on your trip down, need to order a few hundreds grammes of bak kwa to give SO's family and of course for my own consumption...please sms me if there're any helpful souls!

i should be going down smiling orchid to order as well, if anyone wants to order, perhaps i can help! but collection is another matter...:)

otherwise, is anyone intending to go down to lcg, i'll go with you, don't want to brace those queues alone...:)

many thanks in advance! the kiasu-ness will pay off, cny comes in less than 25 days, must order now!

Just for fun

List your Top 5 things of 2008: moments, people, music, movies, books

1. singfest...and many other moments that i can't think of now
2. heath ledger
3. happily ever after by ben harper
4. brokeback mountain
5. candy by luke davies

i wanna be a boho baby

it has been hectic. lots to do at work, many events during the weekends, endless proposals to finish. totally swamped!

for today i take a breather finally, having finally completed a proposal due today. this is a tough job, with neverending tasks and absolutely irregular hours - you never know when the boss(es) will spring up with a job for you, like at 530pm...nothing is certain! and that's the part i hate. i have to do numbers, which i absolutely abhor! i definitely do not mind writing up my proposals, sometimes it's even like doing your term paper (which i find totally nostalgic, brings back my uni memories and weirdly, an adrenalin rush as well...:) but not the costing part, calculators and numbers are so NOT me. i shall not rant on work per se anymore.

---> in sam's words: i am a survivor and it shall stay that way! please clap for my wee bit of optimism.

taking the mrt train during peak mornings have got me thinking deep. the faces i see, each and every one, so spaced out. it is really alienation personified. why do we live? what do we work for? there seems to be no proper purpose, unless you deem religion as your purpose.

i don't want to work to live. i want to LIVE LIFE, by seeing the world, by experiencing the world wholly. i want to travel, have no reservations, no burdens, to lead a totally carefree lifestyle. a utopic bohemian lifestyle. i never believed in dreams because i hate giving myself false hope, but i guess i have one now - to be a true-blue bohemian! i'll work to earn my feed as i travel, i don't need the material luxuries, as long as i can do whatever i want whenever i like...i can go on forever on this...maybe i shall, when my thoughts are more coherent and substantial...


on another note: an advanced Merry New Year to all! hope 2009 will be a better year for everyone, in every sense or in any sense or in whatever sense you want. :)

to all concerned:

yes, ta-da, i am still alive! unfortunately.

i am up to my neck, with plenty of proposals to finish, with VERY tight deadlines, thanks to my dumb company and bosses. i have to stay late almost EVERY day and even work during events on weekends. i seriously hate this lifestyle - i have a boyfriend whom i want to hang out with, i have parents whom i want to spend time with, i have a life. i am seriously stranded around here...i don't if i should resign without securing a job first, given the bleak financial climate these days. plus, i've have just shifted house and have a whole load of debts to start paying. i just feel that i should just play my part as well with footing part of the bill, at least, work for my own allowance so my parents don't have to upkeep me. i feel like i have a huge burden on my shoulders, which suck. i'm only so young, i feel the responsibility of a 32-year-old, and my type A personality is definitely not helping.

i am really helpless. stay in this crap company which works me to my BONES, squeeze me dry of my every living hour...i am truly troubled.

i hope somebody up there has plans for me, i will try my best to press on with the littlest bit of maturity i should develop as an adult. it is, not easy growing up.