all the thanks in the world to nasha and nasrul. the surprise birthday gift really brightened up my day! i love the book, i must start reading it soon! (: we watched 40-year-old virgin last night, which i found was hilarious. i think i laughed a little too loud in the cinema. really quite funny, a million times better than corpse bride!

路

梁静茹

回头看来时的路
总有些复杂感触
我们走的那么辛苦
好不容易才到这地步
不被了解的痛楚 到不了爱的净土
是你让我越过冲突 陪我走过 风雨险阻这一段路
如果开始就能看见幸福
不在别人眼光耳语中迷路
或许我不能把爱看清楚
想把你的手牢牢握住
如果这是通往爱的旅途
也许过程注定要荆棘密布
但我不后悔选择这条路
你的爱让我深深体会
活着的感触
不被了解的痛楚 到不了爱的净土
是你让我越过冲突 陪我走过 风雨险阻这一段路
如果开始就能看见幸福 不在别人眼光耳语中迷路
或许我不能把爱看清楚 想把你的手牢牢握住
如果这是通往爱的旅途 也许过程注定要荆棘密布
但我不后悔选择这条路 你的爱让我深深体会
活着的感触 有时我不愿回头看 一路太多眼泪混乱
幸好有你我才变得勇敢 如果开始就能看见幸福
不在别人眼光耳语中迷路 或许我不能把爱看清楚
想把你的手牢牢握住 如果这是通往爱的旅途
也许过程注定要荆棘密布 但我不后悔选择这条路
你的爱让我深深体会 我从不后悔选择这条路
因为你的爱让我看见 活着的幸福

i love liangjingru.

i say people always regret the things they used to say the things they used to do. i saw people playing rugby on tv and i was reminded of the times in college. i used to go for your matches, wait for you to finish your training, watch rugby matches, imitate rugby players, you even taught me how to play (or maybe tried to teach). the funny thing is, i also continously complained why you spent so much time on rugby and left little time for me and your studies. but i miss those times so much, maybe you don't know, i love to see you play in matches. i even miss the you soaked in your perspiration after every game. so charismatic, so in-charge. the competition you fought in, the vigour in your eyes, the strength in your limbs, with every move you make, attracts me so much.

i miss you, ken.

today i must thank diyana, for she gave me my favourite candy, that had ken and i busy munching in the bus to town. so sweet. (:

this evening i had my first indonesian meal in 19 years, i think. i tagged along with mom and her colleagues to clark quay for dinner, i must say, indonesian food isn't really that unappealing, like i had always thought. i am so full now i feel guilty having such a heavy dinner. i am sososososososososososo fat i daren't weigh myself. and another thing, i don't know if i should feel glad that i missed my jap class today, and going to miss tomorrow's. AIYAH. DIE LAR. i've got a hunch that my old habit is getting in shape again! urgh. i am so ill-disciplined and bloody yah-yah, thinking that i can still scrape through my exams without attending classes. good luck to me.

WAHOO. BEST WISHES, LYNNETTE.

:(

i have been meeting you for the past 4 days, but i still miss you. grrrrr.

thanks to mabel who remembered my birthday, i am so touched! (:

with my first time blogging in lecture, i must say it is quite interesting. i don't understand why the lecturer doesn't give notes before his lecture, i cannot concentrate without any notes and that's why i am here. my mom was so nice to put a paper bag at the back of the bed, and being the stupid me, only realised when i was about to sleep that there was a gift waiting for me. i am so darn happy, and absolutely love my mommy to bits. she said she put it in the wardrobe at first because she thought i would go in, but decided to take it out. ken had yangyang sit on his foyer floor with my gifts and he greeted me with a slice of blackforest cake. too bad we didn't take any photos.

i love all of you. thank you for making my day. and the radio airtime really made this birthday a very special one.
thanks girls for the toy and the pouches.
thank you ken for the slippers i've always wanted, the cute pink cap (i must start to wear it!) and the smelly lip balm. (: you make me smile.
of course to my dad for my birthday money, as usual. (=
and to my beloved mommy who got me my watch and bag which must have cost at least a few hundred. i really really didn't expect any more gifts from mom since she got me my phone earlier last month. i love her.

when birthdays are just another day to pass.

2 years ago today, you brought home a big cake for me.
20 days later, before i could call 'korkor',
you were gone.
whilst i struggle with life's battles,
i cannot stop the violent inner conflicts within me.
i try to, but i cannot reject piercing memories of you.
not wanting to forget your face, sadly i can only remember you on your last bed.
thoughts of you wrench the soul out of me,
i miss you so much so much,
there's no one who'll quite know my pain.

kenneth, you make up most of my life.
thank you for being the surprise, the party, the strength of my life.
(:

i can only love you.