feifeifeifeifeifeifeifei.
fei, i miss you.
grumble. grumble.
saf should die.

finally went for a swim! and i got a slight burn. my aloe vera is running out.

i missed the stiletto sale because i only checked my email today! and the sale was over the weekend! i fell in love with a pair of aldo slippers and another pair of nine west sandals. aldo for 59 and nwest for 135. where do i get the money?!

love parade was fantastic and shimin must agree with this! liang jingru was fabulous, she was in top condition! the proposals were so sincere and touching i couldn't help crying. i really felt like marrying when the guys proposed. -aww.- there was this game when the spotlights hit you and your partner (couples) you had to kiss. very refreshing and i somehow wished i had been chosen if ken was there. -argh.- concert was good, good, good and i got to see my darlings again. how very much i miss them. wish we were back again.

and i miss ken. and hate saf very much.

'remember that when you're at the point at which you're doing something as desperate and violent as sticking her head in an oven, it is only becuase the life that precedented this act felt even worse.'
-prozac nation

i really can't imagine how one can commit suicide in such a manner. well, it certainly takes more than courage to kill yourself. imagine falling over the ledge, down the number of storeys. what would one be thinking the journey down before hitting ground, joy or relief or regret.

he alone is dead who has been forgotten.

it would leave my speechless if my computer died on me now. it's showing signs.
each time i feel like dying, i think of jude law.
how come i feel so superficial?
tell me i am not an empty-headed bimbo, but an intelligent and attractive woman, full of grace.
how difficult is that?

AGONY.

maybe you want to be depressed because you think it gives you a personality.
because without depression, you probably wouldn't know who you are.
i forgot who the person i was already.
i love my manicure.
and i had a great night out with the 'a2 girls.
but i don't think i will indochine again but rachel and i were seriously perspiring.
wala wala anyone?
=)

i'm afraid i won't be able to enjoy liang jingru's concert.
and i am seriously pissed at the saf for making ken book in on saturday night.
damnit.

the last time i collected my results my brother was there to hear me sob.
i hope this time i don't need anyone around.
i'm sickeningly dependent on people.
i need ken now.
i don't have anyone this time.