my dad made an extremely biased point just now. he said that his friend's wife is a cooking fanatic and they have two regular fridges at home. and their frigdes are to the brim to. and for us, we have an enormous fridge that is basically empty, not for the drink packets. which is saying, my mom is not one who enjoys cooking. also saying, he does not have home-cooked food often (or even at all) like his friend. that's a knife point to me. i mean, amidst all criticisms shot at my mom, whether subtly or not, this is ridiculous and baseless. how can you compare people like that? i was like, everyone is different. and he, being the correct and smart one as usual, argued that people can't be too different. i was stabbed. if not holding the least amount of respect as a daughter, i would have shot back, then why aren't we staying in landed property where i can have my own attic and personal balcony? there were like so many instances i could have shot back. tell me, what kind of statement is that? absolutely preposterous. you can't blame me if i turn out peculiar you know. what kind of family is this?

imagine how horrid it is to find the much-requested testimonials in friendster deleted. poor narcissistic people. all that asking in vain. ouch.

i had this dream last night that ken walked out on me to have beehoon with some other girls in school. i met jiayu and talked to her at the bus stop. yuci and yujun were there too. it was very vivid. and it was raining. ken still didn't come out. i woke up and bought breakfast for him. i ended up playing sims for a full six hours. blame it on invention. sims2 is really addictive. as good as candy. yum.

here's to my classmate:
happy 18:) tong
your long-awaited day.

i used to be a good-natured happy little girl who believed everyone was born good.
i have grown to be skeptical about things, like everything.
everything i question in cynicism.
i don't trust anyone anymore.

i hope min gets me korean candy when she gets back. i am so envious she's all covered in cloth and snow. argh! the only thing i'm looking forward to now is nov 26. and the chalet! i don't care if it's going to be fun or not. i'm dying to release!

i haven't been able to blog for the past few days because something is apparently wrong with my ie. and i am very tortured by the fact that i haven't been able to get down to studying because i'm suffering from the lack of sugar! i absolutely cannot begin 10 minutes of work without candy! this is a bad habit i haven't been able to rid of since primary school. but then if i have snacks by my books, i will be so addicted to them. it is bothersome. i finished half a bottle of pooh cookies with 2 pages of human geog. and i so miss miss miss candy empire. carine, let's go get aeromint again! thank you ken for the japanese chocolate although i said i don't want them. haha. i do want the strawberry chocolate badly! i am dying dying for sweets!

do i have to send ken off on his enlistment day? of course i'd love to, but i will have to be with his family, and it's going to be a little awkward. i've a feeling his dad will send me back and i certainly don't want to impose on him. it is all very strange.