happy 17th birthday, elissa!
although i know you won't read this, haha. =)

click to try character numerology. i don't know if they are accurate or not. heh.

i am tired. i want to sleep.

feeling: wistful. sleepy. afraid. lonely. tired.

i don't want to go to school tomorrow. like every other day. i just want to live in my reverie. with clouds, meadows, flowers, birds and sunshine. i just want to live in the clouds with love rain and rays. i just want to live with you. with you, the world is mine. with you, the world is ours. with you, i find myself alive. with life, i fear death.
no, love, don't die. i don't want to miss nobody.

i question what i say. i question what they tell. i question what you speak.
nobody answers.

i sense the familiarity of that feeling again. the deja vu feeling, from a few years back. it's so near i'm getting scared again, it's frightening. i want to lead a new life i want to be the new me. i thought i did it, i thought it was gone, but i realised, it never left me.

- funny how you're afraid to see your shadow emerge again, funny how you realise how much you hate your shadow, funny how you wish you were somebody else. funny how i wish i were somebody you would love wholeheartedly.

really.

i just wish i could be all you wanted.

i wish, i wish, you would just love me, love me, for who i am.

boredom reigns.