i miss school. miss going to coffee joints early in the morning and hogging the seats till night to study. i even miss going to nus central library to do my neverending readings. can you believe it, for a person who hates exams, i miss studying. i miss writing my notes in all different shades of colours. i miss going to stationery stores to stock up on my collection. i miss using up every drop of ink in the highlighter and throwing the empty pens into the bins, pen after pen. i miss having the occasional afternoon beer at breko/hv while studying. i miss studying alone. i miss writing term papers. i miss doing research.

i'm so nostalgic i suck. i should look FORWARD, damnit.

have been hearing about wedding proposals of late. cliched as it may be, how's a giant billboard proposal down the ecp highway right in singapore?

i want to hold you when you've had a bad day. and please let me, i want to return the favour.

let's be each other's lighthouses in the stormy skies.

actually, at the end of the day, it doesn't matter how much time we have together or how we're spending time together. it just kinda very simply makes me happy just getting to see you. beneath the shields of armour, the simple girl in me can't help but smile when we meet. it beats everything else, even if just for a while, you make me feel better in this mad world.

and that is how simple love can be.

what i really want is to be jobless in october, and go for a holiday for my birthday.

i'm really bad at dealing with problems, all i want to do is escape from them. reality bites, i can so feel myself dwelling into negativity again. it's like quicksand, but i'm struggling to stay afloat.

it's time i took a break. always saying, never realising.

everything's gonna be alright. everything's gonna be alright. keep calm and carry on. hopefully i'd find strength, somehow.

sleepless & troubled

have been troubled over some matters over work and my employment issues. went for a few interviews and am pending reply from a particular company that i would like to work for. at the current place, i am about to embark (again!) on another project, this time all by myself. as the boss says, like an assessment for me as she'd like to offer me a permanent position (but mind you, it's a totally different job scope from what i've been doing, so what the fuck, i say she's just trying to take advantage of me damnit).

so i'm like eagerly awaiting for the the said company to offer me a job hopefully so i can RESIGN from the civil sector. i guess the job scope in the civil sector is pretty okay, but unfortunately i've been in the division which practices micro management and the management styles does not fit me at all, hence my desire to leave asap. SIGH. and this next project i'd be directly under the scary director, can't imagine my life. and it's in about a month's time...how to tender and serve notice...?!

i've this escapist attitude in my worklife, in my previous company too...each time i'm about to start on a new big project i feel threatened. i feel like i haven't made any big mistakes for the 1st project and i'm sure i'll screw up the next kind of mindset, then i choose to escape by resigning...don't know how i'll survive in the corporate world! feel like i've only the stamina and drive to wholly put my heart on only one major project at a time...

the corporate world is no fun. wish me luck.

the ironic motto in life: working to save up to quit working!

it is not about what car you drive. not about someone you know. not about the funds in your wallet. not about the expensive clothes you wear. not about the skin and bones you have. it is about the actions you bring through yourself and the words you mean - the things you do that mean so much to me. like the surprise pecks on my lips when i'm talking to you waiting for a reply, and all you do is lean in to kiss me.

you know how they say about the world spinning and the crowds still flashing by, while at the moment there is just only you and him.

yes i know that feeling exists.

photo credits yourebeautiful@tumblr

credits to yourebeautiful @ tumblr

perhaps all we need is someone for us to lean on during the times you need a shoulder. perhaps all we need is someone who can provide a listening ear during stressful periods. we don't need good-lookers, money-makers, fancy cars or branded suits.

maybe all we need is someone we can totally be ourselves, someone we can lean on, someone we totally trust.

maybe that's all. but you know we can't always have it all.

just saw that there'll be a movie on brave new world, starring leonardo dicaprio, directed by ridley scott. he'll be playing bernard marx, the one who's in love with beta lenina. gotta to wait at least 1 year i guess, but hope it's gonna be good!

tact or tactless?

i'm getting very annoyed with some people. when you need me to do something can you please outrightly tell me instead of beating around the bush? i am not you and you're not me, i would not know what the hell you want me to do unless you TELL me. no need for niceties in the workplace, very wishy-washy culture which i cannot adapt to. this is work, for fuck's sake, just be polite and direct. how am i supposed to know you'd like me to complete everything you mentioned with no timeline, no direction? i cannot read your mind. and really there's no need to be so nee-nee-neh-neh (read: wishy-washy, trying to be nice). it is really annoying.

i kind of miss my manager in my old workplace. very efficient and smart lady who always got things done, and who was quite nice to me! i never feel threatened going out drinking, having dinner with her. here, my current manager is pretty nice but not someone i'd like to spend my personal time with.

++++++ tolerance is key. brew positive energy, lynn, positive energy! +++++++

well, the grass is always greener on the other side... - sing, travis

the hangover (kind of spoiler ahead)



the kind of movie you'd laugh flat out loud, but not something of lasting impression. but it was cleverly amusing i thought, definitely above par of the usual slapstick guy humour. it is 100% entertaining, definitely worth watching. and and bradley cooper is so hot. repeat. bradley cooper is so hot. you know how in a gang of 4 male characters, there must be a nerd, a hottie, an average and a retard. and of course at least one must be single, a playboy, family-oriented, etc.



now bradley cooper plays this hottie who is a teacher and a father with a wife and son. but he's also the wild child teacher. but the fact that his character is a loving dad plays down the wild/playboy factor but ups the so hot and so committed dad! i don't think you'll get me until you watch the movie, so watch it! entertaining from beginning till end!