amidst the hustle and bustle of a slave-driven working life, i am grateful for my ever-supportive boyfriend! he has been fetching me from work and bringing me for dinner almost every night, something that i cannot be too thankful about...the only thing i look forward to every night! i really miss my girlfriends though, working in events = ZERO social life (other than your co-workers). i miss you all alot, hope you all are better off! :(

i've been offered another job, slightly more than my current pay, with definitely shorter hours. i thought about it over the weekend and rejected it. before this job offer, i told myself i'd definitely quit once i get another offer, but i didn't after all. the job sounded boring, compared to my current job, plus i'm pretty used to the working culture in my present place...i guess i'm not that adverse towards it after all. the job scope is fun but very fast, and pretty challenging, people at work are generally nice, and i have a very patient direct supervisor, which i am grateful about. however, like i always say things are always..."so far so good, we can never be too sure".

let's see how long i can last!

one word: deadbeat.

working kills me.

i think i'm going to die from overwork.

i wake up never to meet the light, i knock off never to see the light.

i am overworked, underpaid. neverending work. people at work are slavedrivers, and i feel the need to push my limits too. but i don't want to be burnt out so quickly.

the things i learn are numerous, what i've learnt in a week feels like i've been working for months. the pace is so fast, i'm afraid i can't catch up. so many things, so little time, this time i'm really testing my limits.

today i woke up at 5.30, had to reach work at 645, i ended work at 630. 12 hours of work. and the rest of the days? i start at 9 and i don't end before 9. 12 hours everyday, even weekends, where the hell do i find a work-life balance?

it's so ironic, we're organising a family day for a client, and we?! how do we organise a family day event without actual experience?!

TELL ME; WHY AM I WORKING SO HARD?!

extremely tired.

what do i gain from this, i constantly ask myself, it has been 2 weeks, sometimes when i think i've found the answer, something comes along and deludes me.

I AM DAMN TIRED.

i ought to find some time to rethink this. i'm so fucking tired everyday, i sit on the train home just stoning. literally a zombie.



p.s. on another note...the dark knight


heath ledger's joker performance was impeccable. totally outshone christian bale, whom i thought wasn't given much space to develop his potential. i was totally in awe of ledger's joker role, like overwhelmed to the point where i thought the joker was simply disturbing...it's a must-see for heath ledger alone - a worthy performance. other than that, i thought it was far too draggy and boring in the beginning. i must emphasize that ledger's performance is NOT overrated, you gotta see it to believe it! psychotic yet breathtaking!

heath ledger aside, the joker reveals the subconscious dark side of everyone...you & me, how loneliness seeks company, how morally complex you & me are...the character is brilliantly crafted. there is this desperation the joker brings out that you & me have all experienced before...i can't describe it properly, but it seems easy to relate to, somehow.

i need a rainbow that never ends
so don't take away your safe, warm hands
i need a rainbow that won't disappear
so don't be absent for my tomorrows
only you know why my tears fall
only you know how to dry the loneliness from my walls
i need a rainbow that doesn't fade,
without all the stormy weather and rainy days
so take my hand and bring me away

haha.