psychomotor disability

i drove myself home the past 2 nights. i only can thank ken for being so painfully patient with me. i've got problems going into the correct lanes and i realise the prior bbdc driving lessons were merely really just lessons. we keep driving along the same roads for practice and it's only now when i realise the road conditions are SO MUCH more different and unpredictable.

not to mention, i can't even park - there are no poles, i don't know what to see (i really suffer from psychomotor difficulties)! ken gave me this incredulous look - the look that said "see la, you learn in your si ban (rigid, inflexible) way, now outside you dunno how to park". HAHA.

i guess ken will insist on me taking the wheel more often now, i really need the practice. :)

heart of greed

this hongkong drama serial is really GOOD. i just started watching, only at episode 12 of 40, and it's already very engaging. the acting is so intense, my emotions were just overwhelming. i'm no newbie to crying while watching dramas, but this is definitely not some romantic sob story. it's a serial about family matters, ultimately ending up with members trying to gain a share of the 6 billion family inheritance. as far as i've watched, i'd say this series is a must-watch. and, watch it in cantonese, its original version, mandarin dubbing just doesn't do hong kong serials justice.

a bond strangling the surviving heart

one day when the day was warm
i thought of you,
amidst the summer's storm
how do i forgive you
for leaving all too soon
how can i forget you
a sibling all too short
not crying because you're gone
only saddened there's no one to share
what could have been yours and mine
a stinging longing that never greys
watch me limp away,
into a memory that stays

nausea.

i am so damned pissed even the king of hades would be scared. i am as hungry as i am pissed. i am so damned angry i need to vent. on what, i don't know, and i don't have - anything or anyone to vent on. GOSH, I AM JUST SO DAMNED FRIGGIN' PISSED. AND SAD. GDI GDI GDI! and i feel like throwing up. i am so bloody hungry i can't even throw anything up! my stomach's churning inside out it's so fucking uncomfortable yet i can't do anything about it. i am, again, so damned PISSED OFF.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh argh!

i've gotten addicted to stand-up comedies lately, watching them on video. they provide a good source of entertainment anytime, anywhere. here are my recommendations (not in order of any preference):

1. russell peters (this "brown guy" is fantastic for his take on racism, for jokes at himself and fellow others, he makes you laugh just by standing on stage. seriously.)

2. chris rock (he's genuinely funny - for his "advice" on men and women, marriage and singlehood, you'd most likely relate to his anecdotes very easily)

3. george carlin (he is THE MAN for dark, political and religious satirical humour - to use 'humour' would be kind of patronising, he makes incredible points of issue regarding the sensitive topics, which i find so amazingly true. note: not for the conservatives, religiously-sensitive - his 'humour' can be too much to take!)

there is so many more comedians worthy of notice, these are just my personal favourites.