once again, you remind me why you deserved to be loved so much. you're such an amazing person, your actions sometimes profound me - i wonder how things always come through for me with you around. i seriously don't know what i'll do, what'll become of me without you, kenneth.

a million thanks won't do you justice, a thousand hugs can't express my gratitude, i don't know how.

to use the word 'boyfriend' to describe you cannot encompass what you mean to me. it seems so frivolous and empty. you surpass everything a boyfriend should or could be.

i just want to thank you for being my bestest friend in the whole wide world. :)

there is an inner lover, an inner deviant, an inner daredevil lover. for everything we will, swimming together in the man-made blue pool, exchanging kisses underwater, where the world is oblivious to us. never mind the addict in each of us, we save each other everytime. there is a criminal desire, to steal and not get caught, to love and not be afraid, to fight and still stand tall. we would wear black and drink junk, poke needles up our flesh and sleep together, shoplift into our pockets and watch each other's back. never an element of surprise between us, always a sense of telepathic connection only we share. a downward spiral string from ecstasy to hell, yet remains ridiculously attractive, a bohemian passion only shared between the two daredevil lovers: a boy, a girl, crime, drugs, and love.

why do i have so many so many things to do, so little will to get them started, so little time to complete them? and murphy's law embodies my whole life.

Murphy's law is an adage in Western culture that broadly states that things will go wrong in any given situation, if you give them a chance. "If there's more than one possible outcome of a job or task, and one of those outcomes will result in disaster or an undesirable consequence, then somebody will do it that way." It is most often cited as "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong".
-wikipedia

procrastinators: leaders of tomorrow.

tsktsk.

candy (2006)

CANDY is a movie about a junkie couple, based on the novel by luke davies, tracked on love and addiction. it is cult fiction, yet it is easy to relate to in most sense, although i am by no means a physical addict of any kind. the drug parts are not as wicked as any other drug films, like trainspotting or walk the line. but this calls on the bond the two shared despite their hard-to-get-by junkie days.
it is a modest and simple film in which "less is more" works perfectly well. it is personal and detailed unto each of the characters and especially empathetic which made me love it so much. i'm reading the book now, although i pretty much hold by the testament that movies hardly ever do books justice, movies do indeed provide a different visual dimension to books and i think these two are entirely different things that should be independent of each other.

i find the movie so intense. not intense in the addict way, but how differently each character demonstrate their love for each other. the lines are so poetic, so romantically poignant, the kind where you immediately want to take down with any pen and paper you can find.

for all who enjoy a drug movie that will strike an emotional chord, please watch CANDY!

"we lived on sunlight and chocolate bars."
-candy, 2006

the film fest is here again, go catch something soon! many of the films have only one screening each, so do get your tickets fast. :)

a permanent sense of loss, incredibly felt, totally incomprehensible. like a walking wound.

"I have that feeling inside, like when something really tickles or delights me - it's not singular. I recognize all the awful things in the world, and in spite of them, I can still laugh. "
-michelle williams

i can totally relate to this.

step up 2 the streets!

i love all these dance shows, marvelling at the choreography!

HELP NEEDED

i am currently working on a paper for my module: Exploring Attitudes of Females on Premarital Sex. i will be needing respondents who are

- males and females who have had premarital sexual experience
- between the age of 18 - 28
- unmarried
- 'fuck buddies' or 'friends with benefits' (people who are currently engaged in or have had such relationships)

i will only be talking and interviewing you to find out your views on premarital sex. i understand that this is a very personal issue and information collected is only for the use of my academic paper. it will just be a simple conversation of two very open-minded people, there will be no judgement issues along the way, i assure. :)

if you are willing to help, or know anyone who is, kindly contact me at endt.social@gmail.com. i assure that utmost confidentiality will be kept and information is purely for academic purposes only. informant identities will be kept anonymous to maintain academic integrity.


please help me to complete what-may-be my last research paper, your help is much appreciated!