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Once you've been tagged, write a post with 24 interesting facts/things/habits about yourself, then tag 6 other people. i've been tagged by wani...so there goes (i am really quite bo-liao as well)

1. i am full of hate. (if you do not know yet)

2. but i'm trying to change and love everyone around me and not judge anyone by my own standards and making this world a cheerier place for all! (i'm genuine about changing, but maybe not about the cheerier place)

3. the only thing is i still find it hard not to hate myself.

4. if you haven't realised, i'm still very much on the topic of hate, which further emphasises point (1).

5. i love my mom. because she's nice and wonderful.

6. i love my boyfriend. because i'm nice and wonderful.

7. i used to have an imaginary friend, i think her name was jennifer.

8. i hated my name when i was young, i always wanted to change it to samantha, christina, francesca, or any name that has 3 syllables - which also explains point (7).

9. i hate plaque on my teeth.

10. i peel skin off my sole unconsciously. don't ever start, you can't stop.

11. my laptop's name is marybeth. but most of the time i just call her 'my laptop'.

12. i need money (this is a call out to any willing donors)

13. i think i AM bisexual (this one goes out to zawani)

14. i am dying to be a mom - can't wait to dress my kid, buy my kid nice things, pamper my kid, fetch my kid from school, bring my kid shopping ( i cannot decide a girl or boy so that's why)

15. but if i give birth to a baby with big ears, i'll throw him into the dump ( i told mom and she said i'm so bad)

16. but sometimes i wish i only stayed with my boyfriend, three's a crowd.

17. i am a living irony.

18. i look at girls and guys, sometimes i hate myself for looking in all the wrong places

19. sometimes i think i'm male

20. i like taking showers and now that my mom's changed the shower head, i'm quite upset, it's not as strong as before...

21. i'm always imagining about things

22. i am a fucking paranoid person

23. i miss my brother alot.

24. i like to pee and talk on the phone simultaneously

i haven't thought of anyone to tag, but anyone who sees this, you're tagged. (: actually only bored people do such things...haha.

fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat
i am so fat i hate myself
i hate what i see in the mirror
i hate myself
fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat
i hate myself
i feel so sad for myself

ARGH!

ear to ear

ken and i actually had 3 full meals together today, which is also our 32nd-month anniversary! we had breakfast at macdonalds, then lunch at ichiban boshi and finally dinner at dintaifung, we spent alot of money on nothing but food food and more food and we didn't get anything for ourselves at all (anyone finds this familiar...) we hardly get to sit down and eat together for the whole day usually so today really calls for some kind of 'recognition'! i love him so much because he always makes me roar in laughter...(: i love being with him.

i like it when you hold me back from falling while you're driving.
i like it when you finish my food for me even though you're already full.
i like it when you let me sleep when i'm tired.
i like it when you say sorry before you fall into deep sleep.
i like it when i see you have your favourite stuff.
i like it when you go 'hmm, not bad ah' when i spot something you might like.
i like it when you try to shake me off when i bug you. (actually i don't really...)
i like it when we play guessing games.
i like it when you're vain and do funny things. HAHA. HA.
i like it when we're together.
i like you.

i prefer to be alone, with the company of a special partner - you. :)

i like the boys' outfits shown here, especially with the tote. it's simple yet there's a rugged boyish look (below). it's funny how he looks good with the slippers-and-jeans combo but it looks funny on guys here. koreans, or korean actors have a way of dressing that is easy yet eyecatching. the tote style looks good.

i want to watch which star are you from badly! kim rae won looks so good. :) i am on my 3rd drama of the month, my lovely sam-soon, after love in harvard. LIH is quite a nice show because it has two good-lookers!

which star are you from 你从那个星球来

hmmm....

thank you for the lovely times you gave me. you're simply the best, my silly goose :)

CZQ! you're such a pie. a big blueberry dessert pie - my favourite.

you gave me such a fierce goodbye
so fierce i didn't even have time to respond
and you left a gaping hole in me
was it for me not to ever forget you
or it wasn't even intentional at all
well it hasn't filled up and never will
and you made me hate myself
for all the things i've done and not
you made me different
so different i cannot recognise my reflection
then they always say till we meet again
but when can i see you?

you have no idea. how much i dread your absence. i miss you. miss you miss you so much.

666

watch THE OMEN! it is a thrilling show, one of the better horror flicks of late, although the plot is predictable as usual: the antichrist symbol of the beast, the devil child has to be killed etc etc. but i have much more to say about the allusions i thought i picked out but in fear of stirring up talking mouths, i shall keep mom. i don't want to air any of my what-may-seem-like-ignorant-and-pagan viewpoints i have on religion (i am really quite illiterate when it comes to controversial (read: touchy) issues), and i'm sure there were many subtle inferences in the movie that were glaring at me but i couldn't pay any more attention to because half the time i was quite busy keeping my heart in its proper place. i hope there will be a part 2, as it seems. it was a tad draggy towards the end but the cinema was rather in sync, like you could hear everybody holding their breaths and after that heave huge sighs of relief or stuff like stuff. haha. by the way, it bears a striking resemblance to a movie i've seen before, but i cannot remember what it is, i think it's bless the child, if anyone alike, please share. thanks.

i want to watch the different makes of the omen and its subsequent episodes, if anyone has sources, please share, although i know a tv series of the omen was a big flop. =) i'd be very grateful.

060606 - one good girls' day out! :)

imagine on a flight with your boyfriend, squealing about the in-flight ice-cream served, poking at his chicken with envy, scrutinising your fish fillet with suspicion, silently grumbling that he is more interested in his cantonese variety show than in you whilst you can't even pay attention to your romance flick, anxiously waiting for landing, and finally you reach the land of destination, where you only have each other to depend on, many surprises await, maybe abit of squabbling in between but lots of loving and fun, plenty of hopeful anticipation, memories that await to be collected, only you and him...

holiday with him - bliss bliss bliss.

i miss it. ):

love is...

feeling overjoyed even though he gave you a pair of hairclips for your birthday.

i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i want to go overseas i can't believe i'm not going anywhere this holiday!!! what lynn wants, she never gets.


because others think they lack control over their lives, suicide is the only way to show: i'm still in charge.

he is such a jerk. i hate him. many times i have thought of killing him.

i can't fucking stand you.

in case you're wondering, i'm talking about the man whom i'm forced to called 'dad'.