thanks for the yummy dumplings, hwan. =) we had a fun time last night, entertaining ourselves with the silly games and the food forfeits...i like the 38-point game. we should play again. and i can't wait to meet xue on friday...wonder what we're in for!

my dad gets on my nerves ALL the time. bloody hell. he irritates me to the core and never leaves me alone. stark contrast in comparison with my mom, i mean, you can't blame me for this, i wished we lived alone.

hope carine has a good and safe trip!

currently reading: the virgin suicides
i should think i can describe it as a good read. many would say it's a tragic tale, but it only fashions out the possibilities of being a teenager. i don't think i'll say anything about the plot, it is the feeling that counts when you read page after page. i feel confused at first then i start to feel a little depressed, i guess towards the end i'll get to understand. the dysfunctionalities of being a teenager that results in numerous suicides urges you to think out the limited choices one has when all you want is to 'get out of the hurling world'. the girls' suicide show you the failure of traditional notions of family life, i assume. people say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem but you won't blame the girls.

i asked stan about the noise level in his apartment...and he blames it on his flatmate(s).

사람해요.

we spent a GREAT deal of money during the weekend. i mean a GREAT deal, over nothing. i think ken must be rather sad. because i had a harrowing experience which i shall save you people the details (trust me, you wouldn't want to know and please don't ask) i just hope everything will be FINE soon. i'm praying hard things will be a-okay.

8 things that irritate me (i'm easily irritable but i could only mention 8):

1. pouring out blueberry morning cereal into a bowl and realising only a measly 3 blueberries are in the bowl
2. having to pee in the middle of my shopping
3. waiting for a call impatiently yet i still miss hearing the phone ring
4. waking up to find a huge zit/cracked lips/horrid hair/puffy eyes/bloated me/dry-as-a-raisin nails/my bolster on the floor/that it is already almost noon (i hate to wake up early and late)
5. chocolate that i've been keeping has been devoured by some other creature
6. clothes that i want to wear/have to wear/need to wear is still in the laundry/on the pole/ unironed/missing
7. someone i.e. the father has AGAIN forgotten to switch off the air-con - it really pisses me to find that i'm at the door unlocking the gate and i can feel cold air sweeping at my feet
8. sneezing bouts

you?

worries unfounded for, i did slightly better than last sem. i think the only reason is that because only 4 modules counted for my cap this time round. my greatest worry was that i couldn't get a bloody S for the tear-my-hair-to-bits physics module because i have to retake it if i got U instead. i was worrying about it all the time. when next sem comes i have to take my essential module already, good luck to me and statistics i pray that i will not have too hard a time trying to figure (no pun intended) out the numbers.

at ease.

it's the little things you do

never so touched. thanks, ken, you really made my day yesterday. very grateful for the little surprise, i am so happy. i bet you don't know how much the little gesture touched me. (=

don't worry about me
i'll just cry in the rain
and not let anyone see my pain
i'll be alright after the downpour
though my eyes may seem a little sore
after that i'll be as good as new
but they always say,
good things hardly ever last,
rain falls all the time,
and, old habits die hard,
so my only hope: i can still have the last laugh.

so you walk along the streets, alone, then you start thinking about things, then an incident comes to your mind, you start to smile or even laugh at the very thought of what happened, something so special it only belonged to you and him, but it's so secretive you daren't let anyone know, yet you savour the exclusivity of how it all happened, you smile from ear to ear, oblivious to the whole world.

remember this?

contrary to popular opinion, i thought da vinci code was good enough to garner at least 3 stars out of 5. the book was better of course but the movie served to feed my hunger for the visual necessities i craved for from reading only the book. of course the movie didn't serve justice to the theories brown conjured up but noticing the subtle visuals peeking out at you throughout the movie thrilled me (of course with the help of the boyfriend pointing them out to moi). i thought they could have done better with more images from the book and more emphasis on the mona lisa. trust me, there were plenty of question marks floating on the heads of audience who haven't read the book before. the movie was filmed with the assumption that audience had prior knowledge of the book, i feel. but i thought the actors weren't that impressive, other than the one who acted as silas, this, in accordance with popular opinion!

life. is a very tiring job.

maybe that's why some people quit.

cheers.

continuously defenseless against you.

each time i see,
everytime i think,
always just so questionable.


暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

we celebrated carine's 20th in advance yesterday. i really enjoyed myself, it's been a long time since we met up. it was really quite funny at kuishin-bo, especially about something sam did. =) and yes, buffet time is bonding time, too. we waited at skygarden for rachel before dinner and we did rather queer things - like throwing coins and making wishes. and i also lost a bet to samuel (!!!). then rachel had to leave and the 4 of us went over to may's again to 'sit around'.

we bought carine a cosmetic pouch from accessorize, a princess mirror from thefaceshop and a limited edition paul & joe lipstick, and made a card and dvd (courtesy of sam!) for her as well. hope we can watch battle royale together soon, rine!

this group of friends is fantastic.

i had a hard time buying tix online for da vinci code! grrr. troublesome systems.

falling out of sleep
crawling over the goodbyes i never said
if you'd left me to make me happier
why do i feel i'm not so
and no, nobody knows how much i miss you
not even you.

enjoy!

I WANT TO GO TO KOREA.
I WANT TO GO TO KOREA.
I WANT TO GO TO KOREA.

i hope my mom is free and rich to go KOREA ASAP ASAP ASAP. i need another break. away from this stupid place. i hope my mom will bring me somewhere new this holiday. travelling with mom is quite tiring, she likes to go to unorthodox places (like the estates in hk) and we had to walk alot - alot. and i don't like shenzhen, they keep engaging in selling techniques but too bad i am a die-hard hard-sell customer. by the way, the mall at sz looks exactly like maboonkong!!! my legs are sore and aching. i didn't do alot of shopping (no bags, no wallets, no slippers, no watch ):) but i found a new shopping place in mongkok which is actually like siam square. i am quite tired after the trip - hey, i'm supposed to feel refreshed, no? and i feel fat - i ate ALOT.

travelling is addictive.

KOREA KOREA KOREA. meanwhile, i'm rewatching lip AGAIN.

i need a massage, a manicure, a pedicure, and lots of love.

in many things that i do, i find myself quite an extremist.

i watched M:I3 yesterday. i've never watched any M:Is before but it left a rather good impression although there was plenty of unrealism. it was packed with fast stunts and of course a predictable ending but it did make me hold my breath on several occasions. i wouldn't mind watching the next instalment but i won't make it a point either.

meanwhile, i'm watching lip again! i don't like the ending but it's a good show overall!

i thought it was very realistic and we easily relate to it. at the same time, you wish it would happen to you (but you still know it won't no matter how many coins you throw into the fountain). the leads (Park Shin Yang & Kim Jung Eun) are so outstanding sometimes you forget you're watching a show, because they don't look like they're filming at all with their every single expression so natural. the supporting actor, Lee Dong Gun doesn't pale in comparison either. he fares the best in the later parts of the show with him at his most vulnerable. not to forget the little boy who acted as Tae-Young's cousin, i think he is a born actor. i've seen him in other drama as well, and he has brilliant acting skills for a child his age. this serial will make you laugh and squeal, sometimes shed a tear or two (but it's not weepy, trust me on this.), other times get mad at the cunning characters, it's worth it.

i feel like going korea, with somebody. i don't fancy packaged tours but i can't read korean. :(

now when you have all the time in the world...
you have nothing to do.

life life life lives by murphy's law.

bother. and i am not even excited about going hk.

i need to get to know myself in-depth and see what really drives me.

i hope access to this blog will be easier from now.
:)
tonight i will burn midnight oil in watching LIP.
i am involved in hallyu (loosely translated as: han liu -韩流 a.k.a korean wave) but i'm not lamenting. korean flicks are really good!

having something to look forward to (no matter how no-life-ish it may seem to others) serves a purpose in life. when you're tired of leading a pointless life, find something you like to do, it makes you a better person. pseudo-reality allows me to indulge in temporary fantasies that can never emerge in real life.

movies, serials, books have plots that are all nothing to shout about. they are just an outlet to feed the hungry spirits in us, whether are they hungry for love, sadness, sex, security, etc.

and i am in fantasy.

my bloody paper is screwed - (now this is real reality...)

gotta learn how to wipe those tears yourself.
nobody's going to help you all the time.

i am only an ordinary girl, who loves a man. his riches, his prestige, his family, are only a small part that he has. it is him whom i love.

there is this particular scene...

somehow accidentally, she finds herself at a party meant for the higher-class. she is extremely underdressed, compared with all the socialites.

her boyfriend is also at the party. she bumps into a man, her boyfriend's rival for many years since high school. the awful man finds her attractive but she rejects all advances.

then she meets the group where the awful man and her boyfriend are. the awful man is unaware of the relationship. he meets her again and talks to her and even puts her arms around her. she shakes away his hands but he does it again.

the boyfriend is confused and upset. he asks him to take away his hands in a cordial manner. but he refuses and continues to admire her. the boyfriend flares up and overturns tables and punches the awful man at a SOCIALITE party. he screams: get your dirty hands off my woman! all is chaotic and the boyfriend pulls her away into the lobby.

he shouts at his girlfriend for not being able to self-defend. and for not rejecting his advances and protecting herself. he hollers: why couldn't you have pointed to me and said i am his girlfriend!

she trembles and cries: i am not dressed properly, i thought he was your friend. i couldn't make things difficult for you, i'm in no position to say i'm your girlfriend. what could i do?

and then he grabs her...


i hope you get the rough picture.

lalala...

2 long reasons why i am worried about my goddamned paper tomorrow (i really feel as though my exams have finished - i am so damned screwed):

1. i am EXTREMELY addicted to lovers in paris (yes! i'm still on the same topic!) and have been sleeping way past 3am in the morning. it's not as if i want to keep watching but the plot works in such a way you just have to continue watching the next disc (i'm sure you know what i mean)! furthermore, when you have a companion who is just as crazy as you are, both of you just can't bear to press the stop button. -----> sleeping late means waking up late which means i haven't been studying at all for that bloooooody paper. which also means i am rather worried i will have nothing to write at 5fuckingpm tomorrow.

2. mom and i are leaving singapore for hk in the wee hours of the morning this weekend, and i can't wait. :) we'd actually wanted to go korea but my mom couldn't take any more days of leave. :( i don't know if there are new places to go so if anyone has any suggestions please let me know! thanks.