when my father dies i will have little remorse left. i am typing this while he is beside me. i have never seen a bigger bastard.

bloody hell.

despite the stressful moments, i managed to relax for a little bit :)

i thought the foot soak was a little too warm for my liking though.

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great.

o-week was a big yawn. why does every prientation have to be the same as others. no refreshing items. it is not easy planning a camp (i personally know that extremely well, i have seen management committees sob their eyes out) but i just like being bitchy and evil. i should have just missed today's programmes. and a big thank-you to nus cors system. YAY. i don't know what am i going to do if i don't get my modules. WHAT. TO. DO?

i can't wait to see my baby again. i miss him dearly.
and only you make me feel so good all over again, sweetie.

this modular and bidding dump of systems is killing me and practically stripping me of my life. all i need now is a nice tub of ice cream, complete with a partner sharing. i miss you, ken.
and i ought to get to sleep. i wish i didn't have the o'week so we can let our hair down on wed.

spoils.

my pc is finally back!!! i am so happy and many thanks to yiwei for helping me with the floppy.

i am so fed up with school stuff i feel so lost. i am lost in my bidding system, module crap and most horridly, i still still still don't my way round school. i hate such beginnings and i swear the label: I AM A FRESHIE A.K.A LOSER on my forehead, my back, my abdomen, my butt and my legs. yes, i am inviting anyone out there to come up to me and... just laugh. i will gladly accept your complimentary insults. today's matriculation was horrid and i totally regret getting that stupid package thing 'cos i felt like i was a coolie. even santa claus had reindeers to help. thank goodness gracious the ever mighty whichever one for summoning a cab right into my path, i can't imagine how would i have gotten home in 1 safe piece otherwise. and to add to my new-found glory, my matric card picture sucks. i look ugly already, and the photo makes me look like an ugly ghost. great, now i am so looking forward to my ez-link picture, surprise me. i have like a trillion issues on my mind now and i am no mood to go for whatever o'week orientation. i definitely do not want to go for the weekend events. CHEERS are nightmares to me. MUDDY WET GAMES are molesters to me. i think the o'week thing will rape me of my sanity, if this whole school thing hasn't already. i haven't even started class and i am so flustered can you imagine in a month, i will be like shattered pieces of glass? and which laptop to get is also bothering me. and i seriously like the acer 1.4kg one 'cos it is so small and cute (the dog in the ad totally got me, see how these media gimmicks are so manipulative). the only disadvantage is that the dvd/cd combo (i don't know jargon-wise) is external. it is so small and cute i am quite bent on that. but then again i am hesitating 'cos everyone seems to be getting the fujitsu one. speaking of manipulating, the matric fair today was like this one-way street like they are forcing us to go through each booth. talk about subconscious brain control. we had no choice but to walk pass each booth and finally get out. i think it all started with a vicious cycle. oh, well. i hope to get my turn soon. WHY MUST THEY HAVE THE STUPID MODULAR AND BIDDING SYSTEM?

i am pulling my hair out, and the hair happens to come out with my brains. yay.

on hiatus because the computer is down and out.

shucks.



love my boy.

actually i was just checking out blogger's new photo feature but i bet everyone would think i am making excuses.

well, well, back in singapore. :(

happy 19th for my sweetest girl, xueting.

i love you so much. 6 years of friendship and still loving you.
i'm sorry if i haven't been there all the time, but please shoot me whenever you need.
i can't lose my angel. lots love.

i strongly believe it is all due to karmic relations that we are who we are today and what is happening is happening today, in this world. where latter day mortals are only common mortals and we have no one to blame for our unfortunate existence and scary surroundings. only that we can pray and hope to reduce our bad karma. only we can help ourselves with the horrid happenings these days and not just look up into the sky and hope we will go to heaven one day while still committing our grave sins. i just hate it when people continue doing things (against their religious beliefs) they say they won't and still behave as if they are completely devoted to their religion. talk about repenting.
do they really know?

how much is a seat in heaven?

to make up for our 'slowdown' in watching movies during the trip, we watched two today. fantastic4 was quite alright together with waroftheworlds. i absolutely enjoy watching apocalypse movies, something like in anticipation. yes, i can't wait for the end of the world and i certainly hope i can survive till i die together with all mankind. i must watch the new japanese movie - crying out love in the centre of the world - which i saw the poster in hk 6 long months ago. see how fast our beloved country is in importing good movies? the girl got herself another 2 mango tops today, i am so obessed.

goodies from hk:
-beaded clutch bag
-2 tops
-mickey mouse watch
-mickey mouse necklace
-another necklace which ken got for me
-betula/birkenstock lookalike shoes which my dad says look outlandish (they shimmer!)
-sandals
-flamboyant earrings which ken thought i should buy

i'm missing hongkong and you.

we had a great time.
but the weather was very hot.
there were many many many people.
still madly in love.

our story:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2124114142

this will probably be the first and last entry by me at ... changi airport! i feel like i'm on cloud nine. haha. only thing is that we both are on quite a tight budget. i am so excited. mom and dad, i know you will not read this ( i hope not) but take lots of care and i love you. to all folks, will be back in 4 days.


mmmm.



exhilaration.