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he is only 10 years older. it is perfectly alright, isn't it?
come to singapore, quick.

i want to watch sad sonata.  

searching for the inner me
what's not is a face with glee
making handprints with my palm
with what's leaking from the arm
cuts would prove a slow journey there
where i can finally seek some air

sorry i have to repeat this:

stairway to heaven is a major tearjerker!

i can't get enough of it.

You scored as Diesel. Diesel 83% Gucci 75% Anna Sui 75% Dior 75% Chanel 67% Burberry 67% Abercrombie & Fitch 50% Louis Vuitton 50% Tommy Hilfiger 33% DKNY 17% What Designer Brand Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

why not dior???!

You scored as Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Congratulations! You are obsessive-compulsive! You know nothing curbs images of mutilating your mother like a good counting/checking/washing ritual... wait, DID you forget to turn off the stove??? Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder 75% Schizophrenia 58% Borderline Personality Disorder 50% Antisocial Personality Disorder 42% Eating Disorders 33% Unipolar Depression 33% Which mental disorder do you have? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Cinderella. Your alter ego is Cinderella! You often find yourself doing a lot of housework, but if you are patient, your hard work usually pays off. You are prone to losing things, so dont rush through everything. Cinderella 81% Donald Duck 69% The Beast 63% Peter Pan 56% Cruella De Ville 56% Ariel 50% Sleeping Beauty 38% Goofy 38% Snow White 31% Pinocchio 19% Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego? created with QuizFarm.com

i prefer ariel, but any princess will do.

extremely addicted to stairway to heaven, i've watched disc 18 like 6 or 7 times. so happened ken called me during his free time and heard my sobbish voice. was quite a laugh actually, thinking of it. i must sound like a small girl to him. i really like the show, all the tragic and sweet moments only, actually. not the scheming plots and evil people. i think i can stay home the entire day just to watch repeats of the entire serial. it was the same with meteor garden, then autumn's tale then winter sonata now this. and i like all the male leads! but kwon sung-woo really is a good actor! so suave. i think i'll stop here and continue walking the stairway to heaven...

another 1 month to go to 1 and a half years. i haven't been so happy before i met you, ken. thanks for being a darling, i really appreciate it. a short 17 months have been as if we have just started on this relationship, also as if we've been together for 6 years. i think i sound incoherent. i don't want to lose you. :) 

miss conge2 was alot better than eye10. although i did scream a couple of times during the horror flick. haha. nicole's dog, amber, is simply adorable. miss conge2 was quite a comedy but wasn't as good as the first one of course. all sequels are like that. ken and i were supposed to go on poverty dating ever since last week already. but we couldn't help it and went for ajisen again. for 5 weeks in a row, we have been having ajisen (the same menu!) and we still haven't got sick of it. haha. i love to see his eyes light up when i mention ajisen. i love him.
i want some more korean dramas. most korean serials don't fail me. -sniff- i love soap operas. sang-woo and ji-woo cried so effortlessly i followed. what a good serial. i can't get enough of it and the ost!

necklace featured in drama. exquisite. 

stairway to heaven. kung sang woo is so charismatic. 

just finished my new korean drama serial, stairway to heaven and it is truly a good drama. as usual, i sobbed and sobbed AND sobbed. i really like korean makes alot. the actors are perfect, the plots are good, and really heart-wrenching, what more can i ask for? (more serials, actually) my mom and i wept with tissues all over the floor, only thing is that i think my dad wasn't really happy with the tv still swtiched on at 3am. but who the hell cares when there's kwon sang woo and choi ji-woo? oh, how i love sang woo. he looks so good! and i haven't recovered from the tearful tragic scenes. i love korean dramas!!!

i'll follow you whereever the place you may go. even heaven.

the c.o.t  

kboxing with jolly and carine was enjoyable! i love the two of them but no surprise, definitely did not miss my job at citi! YAY! so bloody lazy. indeed very lazy.

post-fishleong's love parade. excellent. 

wildies darlings! 

at the beach. 

my class. 

pre-zouk. 

us. :) 

one sexy scene. 

bikini girls. 

exhausted. very very bloated.
all the alcohol is making me gain weight.
i mean, i have already gained at least 5 extra pounds.
verdict: good.
i'm going again.
when???
i love the girls.
shimin, you rock. i simply enjoy dancing with you!

BORING.

i want to see my girlfriends on friday.
crazy darlings.


BORING.

on ken's time:

朱孝天
一个好人当分针转完这圈就是零时零分
是否我们一切归零 就当什么都没发生
有没有别的可能 你我他谁是外人
是谁不必再等 三个人排列组合怎样才算平衡
那么谁是谁的替身 机会是否已关上门是不是我太认真
你喾你有责任 给我一点慰问
你说我是好人应该配更好的人
不过不能否认喜欢我的诚恳oh no
但是你的爱并不能 给的完整
可是一个好人 后总会被牺牲
得到你的信任 却得不到你的一吻
但我仍习惯说我们 是否太笨对爱欠缺天份
可是一个好人 到底不是你情人
可以陪你解闷 却得不到你的一吻
但我仍习惯说我们 不曾查觉我已没有戏份

tripping. over my own feet.

called kenneth just now. he sounded so sleepy yet trying hard to sound awake for me.
thank you.
i can't be anymore grateful.



what is fickle?
ask me.

why does it always happen to me?
i can't figure that out.
i just feel like running to ken for comfort.
i'm sorry.
i can't damn help it.

today was our first time and i don't know what happened. and why i did that. whether consciously or not. i think it's my fault but my pride's stopping me from apologising. or that i don't want to either. i don't know what i want, i'm fucking screwed up.
where have you been?

i'm at it again. i'm adding entry after entry because i'm damned fucking confused and restless. about nothing in particular, really. thoughts come and leave, then i feel upset and extremely stupid. i think i'm the only person alive to ever display her immense stupidity in such manner.
it's like deja vu or something of that sort. why did it have to turn out like that?!

i can't stop thinking

great company, great time.
happened to meet jolly in town yesterday, along orchard road. just hugged her straight, realised how much i missed her. so my bitchmate, i miss her laughter. bet carine misses her too. had dinner with rachel, may, rine, sam and baoyue at hrc. was a rather interesting gathering. but nothing beats the 3 people, of course. want to see my girlfriends on friday. maybe we can go for kbox session again. maybe we'll just laugh and cry at the same time. ken's going to be out tomorrow, sorry for not meeting. we'll just have to wait till thursday for heffalump and sentosa!







about you.
why?

to carine: a thousand apologies for throwing my shoe at you! i am terribly SORRY. i shouldn't have done that. i swear the next time we hang out high at night, you can throw anything at me!
to maybelline: i'm sorry for teasing you incessantly, but you are so fun to tease, i couldn't help it!
to samuel: for whatever the matter, i'm sorry for whining or screaming.
love the great company i have. the above-mentioned people spell F-U-N.
thanks.
:)

yesterday was unforgettable. i was totally blown over. if making mistakes entails certain degrees, this must have been the worst mistake in my life ever. to add on, i read my horoscope from life! today, which is so accurate it's scary:
"still reeling from yesterday's 'interesting' events? bet you are. your mission now, however, is to get over it and deal with a couple of surprises - big ones. a long distance call will get the show on the road this morning."
never mind the rest, but the first line really got me.
will this be the last time?

spoiled.

boogeyman was rather frightening in the beginning but turned out to be another b-grade horror flick. my computer is so virus-filled now i think it will die on me anytime. i couldn't sleep that night. everything kept running through my mind, as if it happened before. or for that matter, going to happen. then again, i thought it wouldn't be possible. so i pushed back the thoughts. but everytime i'm alone, i think of you again. is this wrong? certainly makes me feel uncomfortable yet excited.

feifeifeifeifeifeifeifei.
fei, i miss you.
grumble. grumble.
saf should die.

finally went for a swim! and i got a slight burn. my aloe vera is running out.

i missed the stiletto sale because i only checked my email today! and the sale was over the weekend! i fell in love with a pair of aldo slippers and another pair of nine west sandals. aldo for 59 and nwest for 135. where do i get the money?!

love parade was fantastic and shimin must agree with this! liang jingru was fabulous, she was in top condition! the proposals were so sincere and touching i couldn't help crying. i really felt like marrying when the guys proposed. -aww.- there was this game when the spotlights hit you and your partner (couples) you had to kiss. very refreshing and i somehow wished i had been chosen if ken was there. -argh.- concert was good, good, good and i got to see my darlings again. how very much i miss them. wish we were back again.

and i miss ken. and hate saf very much.

'remember that when you're at the point at which you're doing something as desperate and violent as sticking her head in an oven, it is only becuase the life that precedented this act felt even worse.'
-prozac nation

i really can't imagine how one can commit suicide in such a manner. well, it certainly takes more than courage to kill yourself. imagine falling over the ledge, down the number of storeys. what would one be thinking the journey down before hitting ground, joy or relief or regret.

he alone is dead who has been forgotten.

it would leave my speechless if my computer died on me now. it's showing signs.
each time i feel like dying, i think of jude law.
how come i feel so superficial?
tell me i am not an empty-headed bimbo, but an intelligent and attractive woman, full of grace.
how difficult is that?

AGONY.

maybe you want to be depressed because you think it gives you a personality.
because without depression, you probably wouldn't know who you are.
i forgot who the person i was already.
i love my manicure.
and i had a great night out with the 'a2 girls.
but i don't think i will indochine again but rachel and i were seriously perspiring.
wala wala anyone?
=)

i'm afraid i won't be able to enjoy liang jingru's concert.
and i am seriously pissed at the saf for making ken book in on saturday night.
damnit.

the last time i collected my results my brother was there to hear me sob.
i hope this time i don't need anyone around.
i'm sickeningly dependent on people.
i need ken now.
i don't have anyone this time.