Sunday, October 31, 2004

You are Lili St. Cyr!
You're Lili St. Cyr!

What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
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the exams are like only 3 days away and i have a fever!!!
my whole body aches from hair to sole. if this continues i am going to flunk my papers.
i wanted to visit the doctor but it was closed. like how coincidental is that? and i was too lethargic to search for any more, although clementi has plenty of clinics. and now the medicine over-the-counter is making me drowsy again. get well soon.
Lynnette has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Lynnette is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends.

Lynnette has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

Lynnette is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Lynnette is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Lynnette basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Lynnette's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Lynnette slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Lynnette can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Lynnette will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Lynnette will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Lynnette believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Lynnette uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Lynnette does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Lynnette will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Lynnette is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Lynnette doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

accuracy: 85% woohoo.
try this at: http://www.handwritingwizard.com/complete.phtml
happy halloween.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

是不是注定就是这样?
解释不了的事情就用注定这个词
我把快乐丢了
一切的一切都离我很远了
泪水很不争气的流下来
不象我了
几天来一直都是这样的 重复
我很不喜欢现在的这个样子 厌恶
无数无数的误会
象夜空里的星星 数不清
现在没有一个人可以陪我 一个人都没有
为什么这样的时候 都是我一个人
my parents talk loudly. so do i.
i tend to scream and shout.

grumpy girl.

Friday, October 29, 2004

tell me if i'm sensitive to think that plagiarism is going on here. not plagiarised as in wholesale, but somehow the contents seem somewhat similar. i am very picky. i spent my entire day in town. i woke up like very early to accompany my mom to renew her passport and after she left for her office i went to bugis for some shoe shopping. met ken at lips and we wasted our time doing nothing. more accurately, i wasted my time on being grumpy and moody while he was at his econs. i was like so ignored. i hate being ignored. i waited for him for 3 hours before he finished his tuition. alone at tcc. it was darn cold but i managed to finish 3 magazines. i have an extremely lengthy shopping list to check off after the exams. so exciting. well, ken made it up to me by coming over. we ended up watching the champion with me. at least i wasn't alone at home. there is this funny smell in my dad's room and i suspect the culprits are the dirty tees in the laundry basket. tsk tsk.
i have been taking the mrt of late. i have always preferred taking the bus, and i still do. but taking the mrt has its joys too. i like to look at people on the mrt. it's more obvious than on buses. i like shoes. i like clothes. and i like people's facial expressions. today, the carriage was rather empty. and i was sitting opposite this girl, probably twenty-odd. and we were both observing each other, like discreetly. haha. we couldn't help it, i don't know if it's female instinct to check out your species. it wasn't like critical observing but we were just being observant. i like to guess which station the person is alighting at and half the time i'm wrong. haha. there was another commuter today which almost pissed me off. she was talking in her ah-lianish english on her handphone and it was extremely irritating. almost everyone was staring daggers at her and she remained oblivious. speaking of that, you know sometimes people just stare at you throughout your journey? and you try your darnest best not to care? there was this indian man who kept looking at me i don't know why. and in due course i lost my composure and returned his stare. he stopped. it is amusing to see how kids entertain themselves on the train. with climbing up and down, swinging from bar to bar and runnning from the orange colour carriage to the blue one. it is alot of fun.

because i take the train alone.
talk like you're some big shot. the pot calling the kettle black. sometimes i think whether this is a good way to let people imitate you. that is, if the real you ever comes out. i am really in search of my own identity. don't even know who i am. i want to try relief teaching after the exams. i really cannot wait to hang out with the girls again. miss miss miss miss you. i cannot wait for the chalet! it's a plus it's held so early in december, only like 6 days after the exams! wheet. are we bringing nice clothes? haha. min, enjoy korea ok? so green-eyed. i went town 3 times this week and i'm going again later, with my mommy instead. and when i look around, everyone's in their books. i really wish for a miracle that i'm a smart chick and i can pass without any studying. that would be a real miracle. if praying can get me the grades, i will. and i wish some people will reflect. they don't know what's called a mirror. i like people who will come straight to me to ask certain things about me instead of approaching others. and i wonder how many people are reading my blog without my knowing. i like it. so attention-seeking. do leave a tag.

i don't know how to talk decently.
how come i can't sleep every night?
i am really uptight and distracted.

Thursday, October 28, 2004

it has been cold recently.
it was really funny to see all sylvester's supporters lift up banners and posters that spelt 'sly'. singaporeans.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

it is outrageous to be pin-pointed for something you have not done and more importantly, it is not done face-to-face. i mean, come and say things out clearly instead so any misunderstandings may be avoided. i feel so abused. why not reflect on yourself to see if you have been good enough an older sibling? have you encouraged your younger sibling when he needed it, have you tried hard enough to see if your sibling was in trouble and helped him, have you been a good brother? it is really unfair to put the blame on others when you also have a part to play. i'm not taking sides because i know he is not responsible enough and naturally lazy. but by not giving constructive comments, you put him down like that, how is that going to help him? i'm sorry my presence has caused an eyesore to you but it doesn't matter to me. what is important is your relationship with your brother. don't you even think of your brother's feelings? you don't know how many times he has appeared unhappy about the lack of sibling love in your family. i mean, when you see your friends having closer relationships with their siblings, don't you feel the slighest bit envious? my brother loved me to pieces and i didn't treasure him enough. i am terribly sorry he had to leave. i am truly ashamed of myself. my brother and i didn't have a close relationship since young, you know. my brother made the effort to narrow the gap we had from young, being the big brother. and i am really grateful for that. despite our huge age gap, we were able to share our innermost feelings. for people like you, you should be grateful that your siblings are still around. the elder sibling should take the first step since it's only natural that the younger sibling will feel apprehensive because he is afraid of rejection and authority. someone has to take the first step. if the elder one takes the initiative, i am confident that the younger one will open up too. who doesn't yearn to have a close relationship with their family?
here's to all brothers and sisters, treasure your siblings and stop trying to find fault with each other. i don't know if i have the right to say all these and if i'm right to say all these, and i don't want to sound condescending.

i am such a screw-up.
i want to cry.
b-o-r-i-n-g.
i am seriously considering nie now. there is little chance i can get into univ. there goes the long-awaited dream. byebye. on a happier note, one month from now, i'm offically into swing-wild mode. whee. can't wait.

Monday, October 25, 2004

in secret anticipation
i daren't tell anyone
because it is shameful.
but i cannot help it.
still waiting. secretly.
the last time i saw you
i got flustered
i got all confused
because i saw you.

play!
'open arms' is on repeat mode on my mp3.
Angry
Anger rules your life, not depression. Kill Kill
Destroy, you want to get revenge and hate
people and life for bringing you here and
treating you like this.


How Depressed Are you?
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yan xing shu has a pretty nice bod.
taiwanese boys look so much better than locals.
i must start studying this week.
in the meantime, i am officially known as the zit princess.
glory, glory.
i slept at four last night, woke up at six, slept at eight again, woke up at eleven, slept at two again and woke up at four-thirty. my sleep schedule is topsy-turvy. i'm in a funny mood today, not funny funny but funny weird. you know? sleepy mode. this is very unlike me.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

i think i had one too many fruit pluses. i don't really like the sweet because it is very artificial-tasting (makes my tongue pinkish red). but it's all i can afford now and i will go crazy if my sugar intake is not kept up. as in, not kept in surplus. lucky i have my skittles for variety. mothers know best. :) sometimes, i wish i can say 'boyfriends know best.' i need more candy. and i am confused by tower karst and cone karst. if anyone knows, tell me if they're found in the same climate. anyhow, chips ahoy, ahoy!

bursting bubbles.
cracking heads.
breaking hearts.
"maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. maybe they're supposed to run wild until they find someone -- just as wild -- to run with."
-carrie in 'sex and the city'
i so much watch it after the a's. i don't know how.
i am going to be an addict.
i cannot wait for my tai-tai outings!

Saturday, October 23, 2004

i received your letter!!!
hello sweetie-pie.
replied very fast.
smiles.
the exams are not even in my sight.
i am really really screwed this time.
i see my o levels stance happening again.
i know what will become of me, yet i am not doing anything to prevent it.
in for it.

Friday, October 22, 2004

it doesn't mean when your sentences end almost in a rhyme shows you can be a poet, you know.
not all sentences that rhyme make up a poem.
and definitely, you are far from being a poet.
superficial idiots.

when i'm angry, i'm a total bitch.
the next moment, i'm a childish bitch.
i am very disappointed.
"Guys will always look at other girls. It has nothing to do with you. It's just an unfortunate habit or instinct. As far as looks versus personality, looks will fade quickly and steadily while you'll be left with personality, brains,etc. That's probably why the right guy will truly appreciate you for the more meaningful things that he might share with you for the rest of your lives. Good luck. PS: It sounds as if your boyfriend might be playing games with you with some of his comments about other girls, being with you for your personality, and other ways of making you feel "low" and thus dominate the relationship and feel superior. If this is the case, maybe you could talk about the way it makes you feel and ask him to notice how these things make you feel."

if she's so good, go get her. i am just about finished with your attitude.
i don't know if this hurts.
but i am damn bored already.
i like new things.
i'd like a break now.
it's so tiring.
and so boring.
all you happy people out there, stay like that.
all you lonely people out there, come with me.
i am actually very lonely.
i don't have any friends in life.
i don't have any goals in life.
i don't have anything in life.
i don't understand why can't i be asked out to dinner too.
it's not as if i don't know them.
well, maybe i don't know the tuition girls but does it matter?
i am that important.
well, it shows, doesn't it?
i'd like it very much if the whole world gets drowned together.
i'd like it very much if the whole world gets killed together.
i'd like it very much if the whole world gets burnt together.
i'd like it very much if i get to kill some people.
i am so in need of some help.
i think i have a split personality, or several split personalities.
evil twin lynnette will end up stabbing good twin lynn sometime soon.
kid lynlyn will be suffocated by big sister lynnsey somehow.
extrovert lynnie will pull introvert nette apart somehow.
very complicated.
awkward.
weird.
as if history repeating itself.
i don't know how it turned out like that.
sheesh.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

goody-two shoes who go 'ooh' and 'ahh' over things like their fancy little dresses, high and mighty stilettos, photos that reveal their arms which show that they are self-taken (ugh!), shades worn in indoor places, and every other thing that is pink, purple, pink and purple.
i hate them. in a feeble attempt to create their own personalities.
downright disgusting.
typical bimbos who actually claim that they have brains.
all that crap about religion and literature. it's so getting on MY nerves.
the worst thing is, i just can't help reading and that makes the pain in my butt hurt more.
lynnette should get a life, too.
bring together all my entries and it may seem like i hate the entire world.
i do.
this world is sick.

get lost.
sick. sick. sick.
a distorted family structure.
i have missed 2 entire weeks of studying, due to whatsoever reason.
i am really losing out.
seeing people on their way to the a's really scares the daylights out of me.
i so need to start studying now but i cannot!
i have this to do, that to watch, everything except studying.
we were supposed to attend the geog lecture today but we ended up in the pool!
we are so playful i feel very ashamed.
and i missed my only hope of a rocks and landforms lecture!!!
thinking back, i really should have gone for it.
succumbed to the devil on my left shoulder.
'lynn, another day won't hurt. there's still time.'
i am so ill-disciplined. i am so slack. i am so complacent. i am so lazy.
maybe i should pray my way to the a's.
i MUST start tomorrow.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

my friend's boyfriend just got the news that he's going for ns early january. i wonder when's yours. i really hope it'll be next year too. so that you'll teach me driving (i'm really a hopeless at such things) and we can go together! =) as much as i love seeing boys in uniform, i'm going to miss you. and your hair.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

i am waiting for the day to come.
byebye.
it had to end this way.
only 3 days left.
haha.
i walk past each niche, i wonder the story behind every photo.
so intriguing, so mysterious.
every teardrop on the ground,
every flash of memory.
i realise, it will be my turn someday.
after all, life is a cycle.

he sleeps in a beautiful garden
sheltered from pain and sorrow
and someday when life's journey has ended
we shall surely meet again

Friday, October 15, 2004

i'm sorry if i had to leave.
*droolz*
thankz darlingz.
coz
da
lov ya guyz
deariez
~sTaY HanDsOMe & CheEriE 4eVazZzz!~
and many many more.
YUCKS.
they might have eliminated 's' from the alphabet dictionary in their puny brains.
what is wrong with them?
the worst thing is that they actually know how to spell the words correctly.
oh, surprise, surprise.
unbelievable.
and i hate it when people post pictures of their newly-found treasures on their blogs.
ooh, MY shopping spree!
Disgusting.
the young stale memories
they kick in
they grab my ankle
they twist my neck
i fall on my pillow
a bolster soaked
a lonely house
with echoes ringing.

it's all too bad.
it's all too bad.
"oh it's been building up inside of me
for i don't know how long,
i don't know why but i keep thinking
something's bound to go wrong.."
-don't worry baby, beach boys
it's not on a first come, first served basis.
it's more like a who's company is more fun/exciting/thrilling/whatever synonym.
and i am not happy.
all that waiting in vain.
i am frigging BORED.

Thursday, October 14, 2004

happy birthday mel. glad to see you.
been missing you.
by the way, your cake was good.
happy birthday, mel.
you are a year older.
see you tomorrow.
=)
i don't know to anticipate or not.
haha. quite a conflict here.
love you.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

there is so much to study.
so little time.
so ill-disciplined.
so bored.
so bored.
so bored.
then i am tired.
so jealous.
the thought crossed my mind today.
all of a sudden. i don't know why i thought of it. so incredible. yet so doable.
so lost. i don't like being compared with.
do you?

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

you spark off the same arterial burst of love.
:)
love you lar.

Monday, October 11, 2004

hello miss high-and-mighty.
don't be paranoid.
i'm not talking about you.
i'm talking about someone else.
her.

imh should be my hangout.
where i see patients in and out of dr soh's clinic.
i make friends.
'hello, are you on depressants?'
i am a fickle person.
very.
sometimes i think i'm fickle.
sometimes i think i'm not.
see?

i hate to see people mug.
it's like slapping myself in the face.
i spent my entire day trying to settle down in coffee bean but i couldn't.
it was boring, noisy, then boring again, then abit more interesting because many friends came, then i was bored again.
and can you believe it?
i actually left my bag, yes my entire bag in the washroom cubicle today.
in holland v.
thank G. the staff kept it for me.
i can be such a loser.
ooh, like you don't know.

aloe vera. yum.

and i watched saved! today. the rather low-profile christianity-based movie. if it wasn't a school flick, i would have left the cinema. it was quite the college-based peace-conflict-climax-resolution cliche. would rather have watched open your eyes really.

i am hungry and in pain.

Saturday, October 09, 2004

thanks for the fun birthday celebrations people.
i had a most touching experience with the warmest gifts.
angel, hwan, jiayu, jolyn, min, shan, xue,
thankyou. i can always count on my girlfriends.
i had a lovely surprise in class on monday morning.
03a2,
thankyou. you guys got rid of my monday blues.
i had a lovelier surprise at the glass house on monday evening.
baoyue, carine, kenneth, maybelline, rachel, samuel,
thankyou. for all the effort you have put in.
i had a fun time at marche last night.
cody, dionne, fred, kenneth, nasrul, natasha, yicheng,
thankyou. i love the shoes. blame it on big-feet me.
i had another cake at home.
mommy and daddy and mel especially,
thankyou.
i have a fantastic partner.
thankyou, kenneth. for everything you've done for me.

thank you everybody.
:)
hectic month.
imagine moving house in the middle of exams.
like how incredible is that.
not surprising that i got o for econs again.
hope that i will pass my lit.
and i'm so worried i'm not going to be able to study for the a's.
i better start soon.


like the seasons repeat
side by side our usual calls
a mere cycle
in anticipation no more
as leaves wither with time
frowns surface by winter
is it all about time
do all leaves really die
hello blog. working again!
finally. a couch potato for 1 whole month because my computer was not fixed up.
i was practically a walking tv programme schedule.
gosh. i'm so thankful.