spiderman 2 is comparable to spiderman. though there are a few too corny and exaggerated parts. i thought the train part is a tad too hackneyed, scenes of such appear a little too often in movies. nevertheless, it is worthy of 4.5 stars or even 5. at least, m.j. finally realises who spiderman really is. the cinemas were all packed and we ended up in the third row. it was certainly a stimulator ride together with sound effects and heart-pounding moments, and not forgetting the close-up screen. haha. of course, the action forces are complimented with romance. sweet nuance in the love story because m.j. ultimately chooses peter, despite the earlier what-nots. what also brought a smile to my face is the reference to the importance of being earnest. like it's the underlying meaning of spiderman in the movie. another 3 years to spiderman 3 then. =)

it's so darn sickening when i see them as one of the high flyers. at least they are having and enjoying the time of their life. in the right place, with the right people. it irks me to know that i could have been there too. i could have been one of them. i hate how my life was planned. call this jealousy. whatever. yes, i AM oozing with jealousy. and it makes me feel worse because i know i could have been there too. sick. goddamnit.

the june holidays have come and gone just like that. fast. and sad to say, i have indeed done nothing at all regarding school work. truly disappointing. this wasn't what i planned for my holidays. i guess i have to snap out of this reverie soon. SOON. and there there next week, i'll only still be scouring for decent places to study. haha. where's time for revision? i don't want to procrastnate no more. and my friend just added to my misery, 'the prelims will come faster than you can say -fuck jj-'. oh well, then fuck jj.

How to make a Lynnette

Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 1 part arrogance 1 part energy

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum!

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How to make a Kenneth

Ingredients: 1 part friendliness 1 part humour 3 parts joy

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

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seeing confidence pour out from other individuals make you wonder why you can't do the same. at least, that's for me. albeit any flaws, but of course nobody is perfect, these individuals bring out the best in them confidently. that is something i cannot never do. one man's meat is another man's poison. the charm and charisma they show just further put me down further. i sometimes wish i could be like them, yet at the same time, i am still searching for my identity. pretty sad to say, turning 18 now, i have no idea as to who i really am. perhaps one can never know his real self, because the subconscious always exist. i want to meet my subconscious mind.

yay! geography! on ken's request. for once, he thinks of school. 

mr seal. i can't believe i forgot his name. something p. nasha, remind me. 

a dog that is not a dog. haha. so cute. 

pokey porcupines! 

pin*gu! i love penguins! 

:: Do you often cry in front of people or alone
it depends right.

:: Have your friends ever seen you cry
the closer ones.

:: Have you cried today
nope.

:: Do you usually cry for a long time
well, it depends too.

:: Do you get really red when you cry
sometimes.

:: Have you ever cried because you were happy
rarely.

:: Have you ever been someone's "crying shoulder"
well, of course.

:: Have you ever hugged someone because they were crying
yes. what are friends for?

:: Have you ever had a shoulder to cry on
yes. but then again. maybe not all the time.

:: Have you been hugged when you cried
yes. thankfully.

:: Do you cry during movies
all the time.

:: Do you cry while reading books
sometimes.

:: Does music make you cry
all the time!

:: Have you ever been called a cry baby
sometimes. is it good or bad?

:: Have you ever tried to stop yourself from crying:
sometimes. it's uncontrollable most of the time.

:: Does this survey make you want to cry?
wahhh!

:: Have you ever cried over a guy/girl
sadly, yes. often, i guess.

:: Do you cry when you are physically hurt
yes, haha. sounds like a kid, eh?

:: Do you cry when you are scared
sometimes.

:: Do you cry when you are mad
yes, often.

:: Do you cry over bad grades?
once. i seriously hope it doesn't happen anymore!

:: Have you ever cried over spilled milk
milk as in literal, or...?

:: Can you make yourself cry
yes. is it a talent? haha.

:: When was the last time you cried
i cannot recall.

:: Have you ever cried because you were sad for someone else
yes. emo-kid.

:: Do you have a favorite crying quote
you know the cliche one. that guy girl not worth your tears crap. haha.

:: Have you ever cried for anyone who wouldn't cry for you
once again, sadly yes.

:: Do you ever cry on anniversaries of things?
you mean death anniversaries or what?

:: Do you cry over someone you love becoz they have a gf/bf?
that's a funny question.

::When was the last time u felt love and u cried?
haha. feel love and cry?

::Who is the person you always cry for?
i don't know. myself.

:: Will you cry because this survey is over:
i would if i were out of my mind.

my mum is
great.

my dad is
weird.

my sis is
non-existent.

my bro is
mine.

my crush/bf/gf is
kenneth.

my grandma is
nice.

my grandpa is
in peace.

my teachers are
damned.

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stuff that i have.

my sch bag is
green.

my pencil case is
a gift from ken.

my PC is
erratic.

my wallet is
from projectshop.

my camera is
a gift from my brother.

my mobile is
damn damned slow.

my books are
bought and always left unread.

my accessories are
insufficient.

my sunglasses are
non-existent.

my towel is
just of the many.

my teddy is
collecting dust.

my clock is
in my body.

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what i am wearing right now.

my shirt is
blue.

my shorts/trousers is
black.

my shoes are
indispensable.

my jacket is
in surfbabes.

my socks are
holey.

my belt is
lost.

my mind is
what mind?!!?!?!

school's reopening really really soon. i think i'm falling ill. triple yucks. i really hate school.i just want to private study & sit for the a's. haha.

one of the few highlights of the sleepover. yes, us at work on shimin's! 

of course, this's mine. 

bored games. 

孤单北半球

作词:Benny.C　作曲:方文良　编曲:方文良+梁介洋

用我的晚安陪你　吃早餐 记得把想念　存进扑满
我　望着满天星在闪
听牛郎对织女说要勇敢

别怕我们在地球的两端 看我的问候　骑着魔毯
飞　用光速飞到　你面前
要你能看到十字星有北极星作伴

少了我的手臂当枕头　你习不习惯
你的望远镜望不到我北半球的孤单
太平洋的潮水跟着地球来回旋转
我会耐心地等　随时欢迎你靠岸

少了我的怀抱当暖炉　你习不习惯
E给你照片看不到我北半球的孤单
世界再大两颗真心就能　互相取暖
想念不会偷懒　我的梦通通给你保管

i'm off to the zoo tomorrow! ken and i originally intended to visit the new water theme park but macha suggested the zoo, so there goes. i wanted to visit the zoo for quite a while already, it's been ages since i last went there. i hope it will be another bonding session! we sat outside zara yesterday. macha sort of told us how he was feeling. it's really confusing for parties involved and not. everything seems to be a jigsaw. i guess it's the winding roads in life that make us stronger for other journeys in life.

had a fun, fun sleepover. =) we played bridge over and over again. i'm sure there were at least 30 games of bridge! haha. and of course, bluff and board games. we wanted to have supper so we walked all the way from my place to block 257. but the 24-hour hour coffeeshop only had 3 shops open. how ironic. then we walked to almond avenue playground. sat on swings and watched the stars. i didn't even sleep a wink. but i was pretty energetic, i say. except that i slept during harry potter yesterday. heh. i caught the first 15mins and the last 40 mins. i couldn't last. i don't know how to rate the movie. but considering that i fell asleep after about 15 mins, not that fantastic eh? i love my friends. all of you. my boyfriend rocks, too. :)

holding back the tears just to take another step
taking back the words just to show my guilt
how many times have we struggled
how many times have we tried walking forward
is it really the last time we'd leave each other
is it really the last time we'd ever fight
how many times have i held the tears back
just to tell myself i don't care

heard a nice song on radio. just thought i'd translate it. well, as best as i can.

i had a marvellous day with xueting at the pool! like old times. so happy! i hope i got a tan. can't wait for the sleepover on friday. hope it will not be cancelled. funny feeling. haha. want to go swimming again! thanks ken's mommy for the new hair stuff. makes my scalp tingle. nice. i think my mood swings terribly. and i can't stay mad for very long, albeit i might want to. haha.
whee.

thanks for all the tags. you all make my day, sweeties. =)

YOU always make me feel WORTHLESS.
as if my self-esteem isn't low enough.
i am a wretched woman, who has no place anywhere but hell, only worthy of expletives from you and nothing but demoralising remarks. i feel ashamed. oh, thank you!
FUCK IT.
and this isn't enough.

everyone is a story-teller.
a successful one if another doesn't discover the loopholes.
otherwise, the story-tellers are dismissed as attention-seekers.
do not keep in mind that there will always be an audience to enjoy your puppet shows.
for people seek truth in drama too.
without that bit of realism, it's hard to imagine.
so, please, give it some slack for a while.
not everyone has to watch nor listen.
not everyone belongs to you.
no, not me. i don't belong to you.
neither do you belong to me.
in the first place, what were we to begin with?
this may be a mirror, and here i am stabbing back at myself.
but if this helps others, let it.
i hope it does.

A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.

The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee."

The husband said, "You are in charge of cooking around here and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee."

Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should brew coffee."

Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me."

So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament and showed him at the top of several pages, and indeed it
says...."HEBREWS".

hahahaha. hahahaha.

--- my boyfriend's a soccer freak
and i'm bored sick.
he likes to sleep
but i try always to make him read.
sometimes he can be a creep
but most he's a good keep! ---

see what i mean by bored.

i can take all the madness the world has to give
but i can't last a day without you.

really. i'm seriously dependent. i think it's wrong but i cannot help it. there will be a time when i will stand alone, as any other being will be too. dependency is a bane. haha. i want to buy shorts.

holler. holler! HOLLER!

tell me to take a forward step.
going, going in so mad.
tell me to brush away the cloudy clouds.
crying, crying out so loud.
tell me to see the sun shine again.
running, running like an insane.
what's the point in giving signs
what's me hanging on a bow-line

hung.

1. last person u wrote a testimonial:
junhao.

2. sport you would least play:
sport? what sport?

3. last movie u watched:
eternal sunshine.

4. what do people first notice when they see u:
how would i know?

5. do you like peanut-butter?:
it depends.

6. do you read comics?
i love baby blues.

8. Do u like earthquakes?
sometimes, you just wish for an earthquake that instance, so that the earth opens and swallows you up. right in your most embarrassing moment. you know what i mean?

9. worst nightmare?
argh!

10. most beautiful place u've visited?
hearts. people's hearts. and maybe their minds.

12. wanna be a celebrity?
well, it depends. hung is considered a celebrity isn't he?

13. do u like surveys?:
look at me!

14. your high school best friend:
xueting. shimin. angeline. rueyhwan. i had many. and i love them still!

16. your worst physical asset:
my entire self alright. it's ironic to use 'worst' on an 'asset'. who set this questionaire?

17. most people would describe me as:
crazy, fat bitch? i don't know.

18. one thing u hate about yourself:
i think myself.

19. vegetable u hate:
i don't know what you call it in decent english. some kind.

20. u like to go out on a grocery?
yes. i think this question is weirdly phrased.

21. favorite person in the world?
nobody. then again, maybe my parents. maybe.

22. can you dance?
badly, yes.

23. favorite past time?
shopping.

24. are you happy?
with this questionaire, no. with the world, no. with everyone, no. get me?

25. do you believe in God?
give me money.

6 things that you're wearing right now?:
1. jammies
2. a bracelet
3. pair of spectacles
4. earring
5. undies
6. a frown

6 things you're going to do tommorow:
1. wake up
2. slack
3. chill
4. eat
5. laugh, i hope
6. breathe, i hope too
6 things you ate in the last 24 hours:
1. prawn crackers
2. tim sum (this is prolly made up of more than 6 items already)
3. hershey's
4. rice (i can't do without this ever)
5. pear
6. grass jelly

6 things you did so far today:
1. yawned
2. applied lots of aloe
3. miss my boyfriend
4. read the papers
5. watched tv
6. used the computer (still using)

6 things you can hear right now:
1. blue eyes on radio
2. the
3. radio
4. drowns
5. all other
6. sounds

6 things you look for in a girl/boy:
1. MONEY
2. MONEY
3. MONEY
4. MONEY
5. MONEY
6. looks, personality, smile, education, and everything else is a bonus to the wallet (i wonder how much truth there is here)

6 things that you love :
1. my boyfriend (although he has a thinning or no wallet)
2. my family
3. dogs
4. laughing
5. my friends
6. everything i love, i love.

chalet was fun. perhaps a chance to know people better. it is. and i love my friends more. thank goodness i didn't get a single bite. but the creepy crawlies got me on my nerves. thank goodness again for kenneth. i'm sorry i didn't let you sleep well on the first night. haha. you paid me back on the second. thanks. i love my honey-sugared-topped-with-chocolate boyfriend. =)
i want to go to bali. at the end of this year. i must go there!

i hope it will be fun. i somehow miss my friends alot. extremely emotional. hah.

i watched two videos this week, trainspotting and how to lose a guy in ten days. both are nice shows, with trainspotting being the one's more in depth of course. i guess the book is better and more detailed but i'm still in the midst of starting to read it proper. haha.
i would have more company if you were around, mel. trainspotting was your all-time favourite movie. and you loved the book and of course, irvine welsh. sometimes i feel i'm trying to follow your footsteps because it makes the grief lessen. having you in me makes me less guilty, having you in me helps me to move on. i miss you, mel. so much i have illusions and i smell you in your room. so much i wish my bin were filled with food wrappers like before. so much i wish i could greet somebody 'korkor' each time i go to my room.

i went for esperanza I as promised yesterday evening. it was a short concert but i'm pretty sure the girls enjoyed the performance. =) went for buffet at breeks with ken after that.
our table at breeks. or rather, cups and what not utensils. 

and to his place to chill through the night. it was nice of ken's daddy to send me back. so sweetie. though i wish for pretty much that ken was behind the wheel. haha. i'm sure time will come.

good job, babies at -fjsb-. cheers to esperanza I.

the turning blades ease her sight into memory
the circling wind brings her to where it's all rusty
twisting turns and spiraling rounds
make her wear blues and melancholy as a crown
that draws up a princess she always wanted to be -
a smeared portrait of only grey, black and she.

of the happy memories
you and i shared
of the joyful times
we both had
through those, you showed
how much you cared
of the difficult periods
we went through
of the inner struggles
we both held
through those, you proved
nothing i am
of which it's all in vain
of which it's too much of pain

emerging ghost from within
struggling spirit from beneath
cheated findings i search with pain
it's scary how the past runs again
with my threshold running low
with the climate turning cold
i don't know how to call for help
because the sting comes from you
and yet my only source of aid
is you.

teach me.
to smile.

you make me laugh, you make me cry,
you make me live, you make me die, for you
you make me sing, you make me sad,
you make me glad, you make me mad, for you

i love you, hate you, love you, hate you
But i'd want you till the world stops turning

talk about paradoxes. right.

that which are the yellow squares of light
leave me thinking into the lonely night
going through each page of recollections
what's left is only remembrance in the mention
there is no choice anymore but to go ahead
and step into another depth of the memory crate.

it's funny how dismalness can call forth literature.

i love my mommy 'cos she brought me shopping again. i lost a pair of shoes and a pair of slippers over the last few months, all because i left them outside. i hate shoe thieves. curse them all. in breaking all their toes. sick people, why the need to steal footwear, not very ideal huh? but it doesn't really matter now 'cos i got a new pair of slippers. yay. i thought the nike sandals were pretty but the only color was orange. woo. i love orange. haha. of course i didn't get them. i love mommy 'cos she pampers me so much! i want my parents in my next life, next lives too!

ken likes billy bombers' fries. and marche's rosti. ken just enjoys potatoes.

our first.  

brimming.
he makes me fall in love with him every day, in fact, almost all the time.
i want you till the world stops turning. :)