i watched the day after tomorrow and eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. day after tomorrow has superb effects but i thought the ending was pretty unrealistic. the storm stopped but the city was covered in ice. so what happens when the ice melts? isn't there going to be a flood? maybe there was a rush in fliming. eternal sunshine is indeed a profound movie. some parts were pretty confusing to me and i think i ought to watch again to see it in a better light. filming is not prosaic and it somehow reminds me of lomography. i think it is worth the four stars, though it took a while for me to actually realise what the film is about. if it were possible to erase parts of our memory, would we be taking over mother nature? eternal sunshine has a few elements of conditioning and a familiar scene from a clockwork orange. i should watch it again.
i know my brother would have enjoyed such a movie. he loved such films, of course, he loved movies. i want to watch every movie that you would have watched, and record its contents and plots in my mind as much as i can. so that when i meet you in due time, i can share with you what you never got to experience. everything i do and see reminds me of you. i don't know when we'll meet again, but i know one day we will. so till then, i'm keeping the memories we had with me. i miss you and don't you worry, i miss you in a happy happy way. you know what i mean. :)

mummy asked me today if i had any goals. i pondered for a little while before saying, 'get a rich man and marry.' and not surprisingly i was returned with a laugh. i told her i haven't carried out her instructions to start jogging at sixth avenue and visit classy restaurants where they serve goat's liver and caviar. my goal is to own a wardrobe where it never shrinks when i donate each piece that i've worn only once to charity. but of course, make the clothes designer. no worries about marrying an old foggie who's about to pass on soon. i'd get to inherit all his property then. mummy told me that i had to spend first in order to get more in return. indeed. humour indeed.

i forgot when life became so mundane. i forgot when i last lived a life. i forgot when life started to hold no more meaning.

sleepy. and i haven't touched my paper 1. zzz. if only i didn't have to go for lessons tomorrow. for heaven's sake, it's the holidays! i wish she would just quit NOW. really, i'm like pretty excited about sentosa next week. ooh! can't wait!

and yes, my current toy. donkey! 

my favourite baby - yangyang. 

heavenly. 

despites our spats and quarrels at times, i know you love me. i love you too, baby. today was a great day, in fact the whole week was fantastic. i haven't been town-ing for sososo long. kenneth, you make me smile. thanks for being mine.

you and i,
are just like a couple'a tots
dancing around the meadows
picking up lots of forget-me-nots

the boys got fourth place in the end. anyway, i'm sure they did their best. so, well done boys, performance on the field was great! cheers.

happy birthday baoyue, haoxiang and elissa's mommy! =) cheers.

woohoooooooo babies!!! i love youuuuuu! up up and awaayyyyy!

Literature P8

1st June
LT2
9 - 11am
1 - 3pm
10th June
AVA
9 - 11am
11th June
LT2
10 - 12pm

Geography (Phy)
AVA
3rd June
1 - 3pm
4th June
12 - 2pm

Economics
LT2
9th June
10 - 12pm

i feel like eating brad pitt. he's like so so so delicious.

Get to know what everyone was like in secondary
school!

Your Secondary School:
Fajar Secondary School

1. nickname in high school?
lynn, nette, zhu, even bitch.

2. sport you were into?
if you consider talking a sport, yes i love talking.

3. had a gang of frens? how many were you?
we were like just ONE.

4. best subject?
i like writing and i don't do numbers.

5. worst subject?
ditto.

6. a teacher you owe life lessons to?
mrs yee. rule no. 6 - don't take life too seriously.

7. a teacher you wanna kick in the ass?
i don't know.

**Describe In One Word**

8. sec 1 year: shy.

9. sec 2 year: glory.

10. sec 3 year: noisy.

11. sec 4 year: memorable.

12. your best friend was?
i had many best friends.

13. your worst friend was?
my best friends were also the worst. haha. they made me laugh and cry at the same time.

14. cafeteria food sucked?
we only ate from one stall.

15. most hilarious school rule?
it was an unwritten school rule where striking-coloured lingerie wasn't allowed.

16. wore uniforms?
it's singapore. hello?

17. how was the prom?
the one we imagined was fantastic. other than that, reality sucked.

18. who was prom king and queen?
everyone was a prom prince or a prom princess, from our imagination.

19. any achievements?
yes, the priceless memories and the everlasting friendships.

20. were you popular?
i was bitchy. everyone knew bitches.

21. best song that reminds you of high school?
love, me - collin raye.

22. unforgettable sec school crush?
is it good unforgettable or bad unforgettable?

23. most embarrassing moment?
argh!!!

24. memory you'd like to forget about sec school?
i would like to keep all memories.

25. best memory?
everything counts.

26. any regrets?
i wish i had not taken things for granted. i wish i had told everyone i loved them and despite my multiple complaints about work and exams, i loved the school days.

27. would you like your "future child" to attend your high school?
it doesn't really matter, does it? everyone is different. my child will just have to enjoy being a teenager while he/she can.

28. were the bathrooms clean?
well, the higher level ones were. that explains why we were constantly missing from classes. haha.

29. how were the lunch boys?
they ate. and ate. and ate alot.

30. song that would best describe your sec school life:
love, me - collin raye

i was tuning to 93.3 earlier on when i suddenly miss my friends. yes, no doubt we have stayed in contact and met up a number of times (i'm so glad for that), but the feeling's different, somehow. we have drifted apart we all know, and i can't help but feel a little sad at that. call it nostalgia, call it loneliness. a part of me wants to move on to adulthood quick, yet another bigger part of me wants to turn back time to my secondary school days. all of us stuck together we all relied on each other in some ways, we cried together, we laughed together, we loved together. times are so different now, we hardly can be so carefree now. we could afford to skip a.math lessons just to linger at the balcony, sing and watch raindrops fall. simply cannot forget that, can we? we would find each other if anyone was lost, we would love so passionately, so easily. we hardly got angry at each other, and if we did, maturity took over and all's well again. we would stand up for each other so fiercely and not let anyone bully us. we would all cry if anyone teared, laugh if anyone laughed, sing if anyone hummed. the memories are too precious to be lost, even if i want to forget, it's just etched inside, it's so impossible. the number of hours we waste gossiping, wondering, dreaming now seem so priceless, and we know it's so unlikely we'll do it again. we wondered about who's going to get married first, who's going to be who's bridesmaid, who the grooms would be, what we would do at our weddings! the pure thoughts of little girls yearning to become young women. now, how we wish the clock would have stopped at those times, when we were in our own reverie, when we weren't bogged down by any burdens. as we age, we find time passing faster, we get things accomplished, but often at the expense of life. we forget how to live like carefree little girls, we forget how life tastes like anymore. but it's too late to lament and regret now, isn't it? we'll just have to make the best out of what hasn't been lost, eh?

i really miss all of you. i want to squeeze all of your hands, hug all of you, sing with all of you, all over again.

dig this, people!

extracted from in a pitt of passion life! ST 22 may 2004

in fact, brad's so beautiful he was given the wrong role in the show (troy). somebody screwed up big time when brad wasn't cast as helen, the face that launched a thousand ships. i say this because the actress picked to play her looked to me like a face that launched at most three sampans.

i say, put the most beautiful woman next to achilles in troy, all eyes will be on pumped-up, olympics-gold-medal-worthy greek hero. those bronzed biceps, the bulging torso, hidden subtly under that armour or blue sexy tunic! zawani, let's steal the posters!

for insights on the iliad by homer. yes, troy is good. ditto. tritto. quartto. whatever.

i watched troy again yesterday. i don't know if i'm biased because of the fantastic male cast (pitt and bana only) or it's the storyline, battle moves or the fact that it's based on a greek myth (though not much truth held in the movie, i think) but i must say, it rocks. and i won't mind watching it a third time, a fourth time, a fifth...if i must die making love with brad pitt, i will. i swear. he certainly looks dashing, if not edible [yummy!] in that armour and that go-ahead-&-strip-me blue robe. i will, achilles, i will.
of course, thank you kenneth for watching it with me a second time, baby. you're so sweet. but really, you'd be my achilles if i could have the poster though...

i was never a good sister. and now i haven't a chance to be. i better get my stuff, i'll try to be a good daughter, a good friends, a good lover. i sometimes think if i could have been a better sister. thanks, you never gave me time.

life does get a little too hard. i'm only seventeen. i feel like i've got to handle a burden of a twenty-five year old. of what we could have shared if you'd stayed.

today i passed by this army guy who just had an accident. he was bleeding at the back or so i think, since his white shirt was stained but he's alright. i wonder had you been like that, bleeding and in pain, if u had, i certainly hope it had been an instant. i wouldn't want you to be in pain for long.

there will always be some images in life where you'd never forget. most of the time, these images bring back sad memories.

-much as i smile and laugh, it gets harder because i find you in everything i do, everywhere i go. you would have enjoyed all the new music, new movies, and perhaps, a happier family.

i want to watch troy again! geez. and i want the 3 other qoo toys. they are really quite adorable. any one cares to share if qoo's a boy or girl?

happy 7th month anniversary baby. i'm sorry i haven't been consistent on keeping the dates, i'm not exactly a fan for numbers. haha. i feel like i've known you forever. hope the match went well, be it a win or not. i hope the stones or pebbles don't ever surface again, if they will, we'll rub them gone ok? i want pretty flowers along the garden path, no stones no nothing, but fresh scent and colourful flowers. add a lil' rainbow at the end!

lift the heart to see what's pressing beneath. sometimes we need no sanity to search for reason. other times, choice replaces reason. that's where love lies.

-the greying skies, the battered hearts, the tight struggle, what's left of life is time.

go let it out - oasis

Paint no illusion, try to click with whatcha got
Taste every potion cos if yer like yerself a lot
Go let it out, go let it in, go let it out
Life is precocious in a most perculiar way
Sister psychosis don't got a lot to say
She go let it out, she go let it in, she go let it out
She go let it out, she go let it in, she go let it out
Is it any wonder why Princes & Kings
Are clowns that caper in their sawdust rings
And ordinary people that are like you and me
We're the keepers of their destiny
I'm goin' leaving this city, I'm goin' drivin' outta town
Your comin' with me the right time is always now
To go let it out, go let it in, go let it out
To go let it out, go let it in, go let it out
Is it any wonder why Princes and Kings
Are clowns that caper in their sawdust rings
Cos ordinary people that are like you and me
We're the builders of their destiny
We're the builders of their destiny
We're the builders of their destiny
We're the builders of their destiny
So go let it out - go let it in
Go let it out - don't let it in
Go let it out - go let it in
Go let it out - don't let it - don't let it in

i need troy to calm my nerves. BLARGH!!! MONSTER!!! aleeke-o. i wish you were here to accompany me through the night. it always comforted me to see your room light still on in the wee hours of the night. it used to. used to. i wish i could use present tense.

-every day, every night, i'm missing you.

i'm sorry i cannot stop talking about troy. a spectacular movie that has pitt kicking bloom's ass. it's highly recommended. i think i want to name my son troy, or maybe achilles. omg. i think i'm going crazy. i want to get the troy poster with brad. i want to steal from the cinema. i think he looks really good in the armour-skirt. his muscles like go, 'peekaboo!'. subtle sexy, you know. yes, typical bimbotism. but really, you can't help it after you've watched troy, whether it's bana or pitt!

my neck hurts terribly, all thanks to you! it looks awful and it feels horrid. ouch. i wish i can get back at you equally, but i know it'll be childish. please, let your throat get well anyway. have lots of fluid to down. you can't help it if your immune system is so weak, haha, sorry for passing the bug to you. maybe that's revenge already. haha, it works both ways anyhow.

watch troy. the front was rather boring for me. but it's worth the watch. troy! brad is a plus, together with eric bana. i thought the admired-by-everyone bloom was a boo. sorry legolas fans. ew. anyway, the movie was an orgasmic experience. yum-yum.

brad pitt is so suave in troy. oh, achilles, achilles!

The Reason - Hoobastank

i'm not a perfect person. there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning. i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know
i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i'm sorry that i hurt, its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears, thats why i need you to hear
i'm not a perfect person, i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go that i just want you to know
i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i've found a reason to show a side of me you didnt know
a reason for all that i do, and the reason is you

this song is everywhere. everywhere. i can't help it either. haha.

i'm alone at home and i suddenly feel lonely. i realise i am seldom home in the afternoons, or rather how i am hardly home. i think alot when alone, doesn't everybody? i miss my brother, who used to greet me at the computer table when i reach home. he's no more here. my eyes hurt and i bet it's the sun. my eyes are teary and i bet it's the sun. my eyes are red and i bet it's the damned scorching sun. i wish ken is here with me now. you're the one who gives me strength now. you're the only one i can turn to now. you're the only one who can take things off my mind now. i'm so glad to have you, i would have collasped long ago, without you.

-sometimes i wish i could turn back time. i could have done a little bit more for you. i could have made you stayed on. i could have joined you. i could have.

cry over men. boys are toys, remember? at least make the crying slightly more worth it, though it isn't really. a little self-consolation won't hurt, baby.
i don't know how to start my studying for the mid-years, i don't know where to start, but i know it's high time. i wonder how i passed my promos, where i got those mugging energy from. i actually slept sitting up straight whilst going through my geog notes, now, how's that for a little yoga?

hot hot hot hot weather. it's damn warm. i don't mind freezing to death.

didn't go school today since i was feeling lethargic. turned out that ken didn't as well. oh, well. haha. so here we are slumbering in our own beds. yawn. exams are coming. how come i don't have any drive? i still feel sick. slowly, slowly catch da monkey! wheee.

Everytime - Britney Spears
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
After all
After all

i think a-do is dusty. it must be all that construction.

happy mother's day, mummy annie. i love you to bits.
also,
happy birthday, daddy! as of may 07. sorry i didn't post it on the date itself, i was quite sick. i know you'd love me still.
i love my mummy and daddy, though i might scream at you two sometimes. =)

wheee. can't contain my joy, can i? wheee!

i am darned happy. please fight acjc next week. i know it's hard to beat them, at least, fight them. i know you boys are good. i know you boys won't give them an easy time. good luck. =)

the boys got into the semis!!! i am so happy. at first the boys were losing to hc by 2 points, i was really worried, couldn't even shop in peace. my phone was in my hands all the time and the fingers were doing some really intense exercises, had to be kept posted on the score. then came a message saying that the score was then 13 : 5, with jj winning. i was so glad since the match was ending. when the match ended, so many friends called me to tell that jj won. you know that kind of joy you feel when you thought that you may lose but in the end you won? it's an elevated kind of joy! i'm so proud of the boys, and of course, particularly my boyfriend. i'm sure you played fantastic sweetheart. cheers! and, thanks for all who prayed hard. =)

Adam Sandler - Forgetful Lucy

La-woo-kee-low is the place
Where I first saw your face
We liked each other right away
But you didn't remember me the very next day
Forgetful Lucy
Has got a nice caboose-ie
I used to trick you into pulling your car over so we could chat
But my favorite time was when you beat the shit out of Ula with a bat
Than we drove up to see Dr. Keets
And find out why Doug always has to change his sheets
Forgetful Lucy
Cracked her head like Gary Busey
But I still love her so
And I'll never let her go
Even if while I’m singing this song
She's wishing I had Jocko The Walrus' shlong
Forgetful Lucy
Her lips are so damn juicy
How about another first kiss?

BEACH BOYS - Wouldn't It Be Nice
Album: Pet Sounds

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice
Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby

hope you guys will play better this saturday. imagine the jubilation if you guys get into the semis. probably the only sport in college can be proud of. *crosses fingers and toes* good luck. =) sorry i can't be there, there's nothing quite worthy to spend my evening in that hellish place, really. though you'll be there, excuse me, sweetheart.

third winning in the season! woohoo. score wasn't fantastic though, something like 34:5 or something. hope the boys aren't too disappointed though. anyway, a win is a win! cheers. gone is ny, gone is pj, gone is sr, time for hc to go this weekend, then the top schools. go rugby! cheers, baby. i love you. =)

i haven't started my mid year mugging at all. i'm so dead. it'd be a miracle if i can get 3 e's. really. somebody, give me the power and strength.

Someone Like Me
Atomic Kitten

Don't let your head rule you heart
Don't let your world be torn apart
Don't keep it all to yourself
Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
I know Its hard when you're feeling down
To lift your feet up off the ground
We make mistakes but doesn't everybody
You don't always have to agree with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
We know the story so far (what you want and who you are)
What you want and who you are (Free)
Let all your emotions run free
You don't always have to agree
With someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
Someone like me

THE GOLDFISH BOWL

The scene of the crime was a goldfish bowl
Goldfish were in the bowl at the time.
That was the scene
And that was the crime.

Something About You Lyrics - Five For Fighting

I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
I don't know where to dig in
I don't know how to get in there to feel you
It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that
(It's been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process
It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
It's been a long time coming
I'm going to hold on to that